home alone

[dutchgirl71]

So I am a teacher and have been in winter break all week. I went to my parents for a few days and it was nice to be with them and help them (I go there every weekend). I was excited to be at my own house for a few days to get some chores done. Well, I have been in bed for 2 days! It has been great to feel rested but now I am lazy and feel guilty. I have OCD and have been avoiding everything. I am catching up on some school paperwork now, but I have wasted so much time. I just really feel like I don’t care about anything. I guess I need the structure of a routine. I have no friends so I have not left the house in days. I live alone so no one really cares if I’m in bed all day or not. My life is boring and lonely. It’s so cold out so I really have no motivation to even go to the grocery store or do something fun like go to the nail salon. 😔

[kenster1]

hi no harm in having a lazy day or two more so if it`s a holiday. get up tomorrow and do the important things spread it out over the day get yourself out for lunch or a coffee even just a walk the following day.

[dutchgirl71 in reply to kenster1]

yeah….I have to make myself do it instead of waiting for myself to feel better. Thanks for responding!

[Scarlett28 in reply to dutchgirl71]

I understand your pain of living alone. I don’t have any friends and I limit family time because I have to fake how I feel around them. I try to keep myself busy but don’t have much to do. I admire that you are a teacher and have a good relationship visiting and helping your parents each weekend. Maybe your body needed a break.🌼

[dutchgirl71 in reply to Scarlett28]

Thank you for responding. I’ll try not to beat myself up!

[Writer101]

It definitely sounds like a bout of depression to me. With it being winter there u might find u have seasonal affective disorder. My doctor automatically increases my anti depressant during winter. However u may have truly needed the rest. Don't put yourself down n feel guilty, that only makes things worse I believe . Thinking of u.

[dutchgirl71 in reply to Writer101]

thank you very much!

[dutchgirl71]

Absolutely! I had a dog for many years and I definitely put him before my depression. He was the best hiking buddy and we went all the time. He’s been gone 5 years now. I really should get another one…but it’s really hard with my OCD.