home alone

[dutchgirl71]

So I am a teacher and have been in winter break all week. I went to my parents for a few days and it was nice to be with them and help them (I go there every weekend). I was excited to be at my own house for a few days to get some chores done. Well, I have been in bed for 2 days! It has been great to feel rested but now I am lazy and feel guilty. I have OCD and have been avoiding everything. I am catching up on some school paperwork now, but I have wasted so much time. I just really feel like I don’t care about anything. I guess I need the structure of a routine. I have no friends so I have not left the house in days. I live alone so no one really cares if I’m in bed all day or not. My life is boring and lonely. It’s so cold out so I really have no motivation to even go to the grocery store or do something fun like go to the nail salon. 😔

[kenster1]

hi no harm in having a lazy day or two more so if it`s a holiday. get up tomorrow and do the important things spread it out over the day get yourself out for lunch or a coffee even just a walk the following day.

[dutchgirl71 in reply to kenster1]

yeah….I have to make myself do it instead of waiting for myself to feel better. Thanks for responding!

[Scarlett28 in reply to dutchgirl71]

I understand your pain of living alone. I don’t have any friends and I limit family time because I have to fake how I feel around them. I try to keep myself busy but don’t have much to do. I admire that you are a teacher and have a good relationship visiting and helping your parents each weekend. Maybe your body needed a break.🌼

[dutchgirl71 in reply to Scarlett28]

Thank you for responding. I’ll try not to beat myself up!

[Hidden in reply to kenster1]

its difficult for me i would stay in bed all day if my cat didnt meow so loud 😁and i dont have depresshion i have sad seasonal associated disorder so must be so much worst with depresshion i have a sad light lamp and get in the sun when its out just that makes me get out knowing it do me good, i havnt swam all winter excuse too cold but im tryner motivate myself rememberring how good it made me feel its just making the effort we all need chill out days bring them on i wish i could😊

[Hidden in reply to kenster1]

thats were having a dog helps must do the dog walk they come first then its a joy to be out 😁

[dutchgirl71 in reply to Hidden]

Absolutely! I had a dog for many years and I definitely put him before my depression. He was the best hiking buddy and we went all the time. He’s been gone 5 years now. I really should get another one…but it’s really hard with my OCD.

[Hidden in reply to dutchgirl71]

im so sorry hes gone maby a councellor can help you manage a dog and cope eith you ocd its very sad how our anxieties stop us living and been happy i had many rekationships with mysogynist men and now im.a commitment phobic my only comfirt and love is with my cat one man threw a cat at the wall i cant risk that again x

[Writer101]

It definitely sounds like a bout of depression to me. With it being winter there u might find u have seasonal affective disorder. My doctor automatically increases my anti depressant during winter. However u may have truly needed the rest. Don't put yourself down n feel guilty, that only makes things worse I believe . Thinking of u.

[dutchgirl71 in reply to Writer101]

thank you very much!