68 Today!!!!!!!!!

[gerrerd]

Well Im 68 today, go back 51 years I was close to ending it all, seemed the only solution. 2 attempts at that thankfully Im still her! So my life at the age of 7 I played darts with a old man who had parkinsons, he could not speak his hands shook all the time he lived next door to me. His only pleasure was his garden and playing darts I was the only one to play with him most days. Then one day I went round only to find him hanging in his shed next to the dart board !!!!!! I blocked this memory out of my mind totally! Then my mother took me to see the doctor he was a young new doctor first time seeing him. I Think it was because of the trauma off finding the old man! But the first thing this doctor did was examine my private parts first memory of him. Over the next 10 years this doctor sexual abused me under the pretext that I was not developing as I should ! Found out recently from my current doctor there was nothing wrong with me! So growing up thinking somethings wrong down below messed with my head massively !! Teenage years it put a block on my developing life. Then I met drinking in the pub with my mates, petrol on the fire. I then made the biggest mistake of my life drink fueld I did something I was totally ashamed off. This turned my life upside down, shame guilt followed etc! Suicide was very close now!!!! but I struggled on until I was 28 had to had to cope how!!!! I saw a advert for self hypnosis in the paper, only hope! got the cassettes started listening to them, things started to change I was reprograming my mind, Started to cope with life etc , until I was 32 then my mother died she had kept me going without know my story, Soon after on my own now I had a massive breakdown! diagnosed with clinical depression, put on medication. It was just survival for me then things were bleak!!!! It was then I started to listen to Wayne W Dyers tapes and programs this help me cope and rebuild my life his teachings started to change my thinking on life and gave me hope. Fast forward many programs later and daily work on myself Im enjoying life and still now trying to help you cope and find ways to do it! It may just be a simple quote or comment but to me it could be life saving to someone who reads it!!!! Ray 68 today and enjoying my life.

[Stippler]

Happy birthday Ray! You have quite an inspiring story. Wishing you the best.

[Sabbath1]

Happy birthday, quite the story, glad you are enjoying life.

I see your posts alot on here, keep it up.

Quotes, comments, anything positive is helpful to peoples.

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[Hidden]

Thankful for you every day that I’ve been here. Your posts make me smile, make me think deeper, and inspire me to always do better. Happy 68th my friend. 🎉🎂🥳

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[MSanon]

Happy Birthday !!! You are a success story on overcoming trauma and ptsd ! Kudos !!!

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[Agora1]

Looking good my man, looking good.

Thank you for sharing an intimate part of your journey.

It's amazing how much you have progressed to this day.

I'm more than proud of you gerrerd. I'm amazed by you.

Happy 68th Birthday! Wishes for many more. You've shown

us how to live life and not just exist. Enjoy your special day xx

[gerrerd in reply to Agora1]

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[kenster1]

you look more 48 Gerrerd happy birthday.

[Agora1 in reply to kenster1]

I agree kenster1 xx

[gerrerd in reply to Agora1]

The pic was took 3 years ago in Palma Spain my first trip abroad!

[Agora1 in reply to gerrerd]

3 years or 2 weeks ago, you still look great my friend. xx

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[Hidden]

amazing person you are but wish you got to another doctor sooner. Happy birthday 🎂

[gerrerd in reply to Hidden]

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[gerrerd in reply to Hidden]

Got your message sent a reply, problem is my replies dont seem to get through.

[Lali2018]

Happy Happy Birthday Dear Friend and many wonderful ones more!💕💕💕

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[Sillysausage234]

glad you chose not to check out ray ,happy birthday

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[DodgeDhanda]

Happy Birthday G.

It's that daily work I find helps me keep on the path I'm happy walking for the rest of my days but mine too started from survival & now when I look back I'm happy I did find a way to help me .

Again Happy Birthday Sir & long may ur insight guide others .

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[primrose81]

Happy Birthday Ray and thank you for always thinking of us and helping us, you are a star xx

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[Littleone88]

happy birthday Ray, thanks for sharing your experience. Keep that smile bright and enjoy it 😊

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[BrahmNm]

Happy birthday Ray!you are inspiring to us and making find deeper and subtle meaning of life where there nothing can be exist other than happiness

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[Arymretep]

What a story, and what an inspiration you are to us all.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 🥂🍾

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[WolfMuffin]

Happy Birthday you look good. Hope that you have many more . I will prayer for you. In all your searching try Jesus my friend He is the answer to all .

[MadBunny]

What an amazing journey you have been on !Enjoy your birthday , and a big thank you for everything you contribute to this community. youtu.be/dpTl2OqxJ8s(Not working as expected?)

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[Mrspjsmom]

Happy Birthday! So glad you're still here. Your words often get me through my worst days. Thank you.

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[Starrlight]

Happy Happiest Birthday!!!

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[Starrlight in reply to gerrerd]

(((((((((huuuuuge hug)))))))))

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[Marysblue]

Happy birthday!

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[Redfox9]

Happy birthday. Inspiring story will help me get going in tough situations. I hope you get happiness and whatever you wish for.

Best wishes

~red

[gerrerd in reply to Redfox9]

Im happy now.👍

[gerrerd]

Sent a message to admin, hope they sort it out!

[AnxiousSilver]

Thank you for sharing your success story.

& Happy Birthday.

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[bonkers65]

Happy Birthday

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