I feel like crap and my 5th sense?

[Adamj]

I don’t know what to do anymore my anxiety is sooooo bad literally I feel it through me. My klonopin really doesn’t do much it’s hit or miss if it will work or make me feel worse most times makes me feel worse. Had to call 911 for my mom again last night she fell twice she’s in the hospital for a couple days this chemo really messed her up either she’s having an allergic reaction or they started treatment before her body was healed from a major infection she had because of the breast surgery. I just took a hydroxyzine to see if it helps take the edge off but I can feel the anxiety going through me the fear the scaredness the feeling of doom the weird chest sensations I’m so tired. My chest feels funky but my oxygen is okay and pulse seems okay. My what I call spidey senses are back I had a feeling my mom was going to the hospital last night like 5 minutes before she first fell I had a weird feeling come over me and was like someone’s going to the hospital and it’s not you or your girlfriend. Like idk why I can predict shit like that it’s been that way for years it’s freaky most the time it’s never right about myself only right about others or events I was told it’s possibly because I’m good at observing things and paying attention I have no clue it freaks me out. I also keep waking up feeling like something bad is going to happen everyday and it’s horrible and something funky does.

[Hidden]

Sounds like you're having a hell-of-a-day. I'm sorry about your mom. I'm a cancer survivor (kidney) and have also had friends with Breast Cancer so I completely understand how overwhelmed you're feeling. I know that anxiety is beating you down and it sucks when meds aren't helping. Klonopin was a fail for me and I have a bottle of Hydroxyzine sitting on a shelf collecting dust. I've always been a bit on the high tolerance end when it comes to meds so I've personally given up on them (I definitely don't advise that). You're under a super heavy load just having to worry about Mom. That issue alone will feed anxiety like hogs in a pig pen at dinner time. Not to mention lots more that, I'm sure, your dealing with. Thank you for sharing your story and please know that you're not alone

[Adamj in reply to Hidden]

thank you

[OB73]

🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾Praying for Peace Bro and calm just breathe relax I have to tell myself that everyday I take hydroxizine and klononpin also but really I wanna get off klonopin it reduces serotonin levels in your brain make you calmer but feeling depressed I'm praying for your mom I believe she's a strong lady she will be ok God has her in his hands and you also 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾 and if you have other siblings urge them to help you with Moms be EZ bro.

[Adamj in reply to OB73]

thank you

[Stippler]

Hi Adamj - I am sorry you are having to deal with all of this again. I will be holding you in my heart and sending healing energy to you and your Mother.

[Adamj in reply to Stippler]

thank you! I enjoy seeing your drawings

[SayNOtoPanic]

Sorry to hear this Adam. Anxiety is bad enough and dealing with your loved one in medical need is just anxiety to the max!! Hang in there bud. Take deep breaths and just say a healing chant or mantra for you and your mom. Sending prayers up for you both.