How can I cope?

[CatPrimus]

I dont feel human anymore. My dad gets frustersted that he cannot understand my feelings. He lsitens but doesnot seem to care he and my stepmom have said that I am not depressed. My stepmom used to make fun of me for my faith, I told my dad and he said "ignore her". I will tell him how his wife constantly puts me down and he doesnot listen. He would also tell me that im fine im have more "good days" than bad days. My stepmom works with people with mental health issues such as PTSD but she will not listen or care either saying stuff like its all in my head. This causes me to blame myself for any type of conflict and causes me to be hard on myself and In my head I remind myself to Get over it and that I dont have depression. I truly belive that I need to grow up and the world doesnot belive that I am depressed. I dont know how I can get my ass back in gear to clean and do my schoolwork. Evreyday seems to be the same wake up and dissocoiate for hours

[Randone101]

I believe you! Others in the community believe you! You deserve to be treated with love and respect, and you are not the person your stepmom and dad are claiming you are. Are you in grade school or college? If you’re in college you might be able to get free mental health resources.

[CatPrimus in reply to Randone101]

Highschool, I tried therapy had a therapist who seemed unientrested and gave me generic textbook advice and it took a year to get a therapist and only 2 sessions because my dad was busy. Ive had 4 therapists in the past but talk therapy does not work for me but I have talked with school counslers.

[Randone101 in reply to CatPrimus]

I’m trying to get with a good CBT therapist, everywhere I look says good things about it. I know it can feel demoralizing when it seems like therapists just dont get it.

[CatPrimus in reply to Randone101]

I finally got a psychatrist but I do fear therapy because I stigmatize it and I believe It wont help me and nothing can.

[Randone101 in reply to CatPrimus]

That’s great! Just do it, is it better than sitting at home and doing nothing about it?

[CatPrimus in reply to Randone101]

Thanks for realizing and understanding its difficult to want help 👍

[Randone101 in reply to CatPrimus]

This can be absolutely agonizing and awful at times, but you can and will be a happier and healthier person!

[CatPrimus in reply to Randone101]

I cant imagine myself as a happier and healthy person ever again I havent felt that in what feels like a decade. Can someone be so deppresed to the point where nothing can help them such as medication and talk therapy. That is what this feels like to me.

[Randone101 in reply to CatPrimus]

Absolutely not, I remember from my intro psychology class and my own research, people with severe severe depression have been brought out of it with things like electro shock therapy and I believe it’s still commonly used!

[CatPrimus in reply to Randone101]

Thank you for the reassurance

[Randone101 in reply to CatPrimus]

You will not lose control, you haven’t lost control, the fact that you’ve come here means you’re still fighting to feel better!

[CatPrimus in reply to Randone101]

Im proud that I have the desire for help

[Randone101 in reply to CatPrimus]

You should be! You want to be happy and stable and you WILL get there.

[Italianmomma]

Do go to see a therapist if you need one. They will help. You will feel so much better too.Good luck!!!

[CatPrimus in reply to Italianmomma]

The problem is I reject it because I stigmatize it and have had negative experiences. Talk therapy has never worked in the past. I dont know how I could get myself to go to therapy. Its expecially hard when people close to you cant understand you and brush you off

[Blacksunflower77 in reply to CatPrimus]

Hello. I have stigmatized therapy as well as psychiatry in the past. Just need to find the right doctors for YOU! That YOU feel comfortable with. It might may be uncomfortable and it might take a few tries but don't give up and always do what you feel is best for your own mental health.

[Italianmomma]

You probably haven't found the right therapist it sounds like.

I have people in my life that don't get it either.

I think they don't understand it. They think it's all in my head. It's not!!!!

[Winterhart]

Are you open with the therapists you have seen? The family part is hard when they do not accept what you say. I really do not understand how your parents do not take you to see someone. Can your Mum take you? Keep trying never give up trying to find the help you need. As you are underage it would be best to keep talking to your school for help. Maybe even tell them the problem with your family not listening. Be a broken record till you get the help you need. You got this.

[MaggieSylvie]

It sounds like frustration and anger, caused by your feeling dismissed. I wonder whether there is another child in the family who is getting all the attention. If not, who is getting all the attention and affection? It could be that your dad and step mum are too busy and too tired. You say talking therapy doesn't help you but you are doing it here, albeit with your fingers rather than your voice.

[hum77]

Hi Beautiful, Depression is real. The struggle is real. I have been through it. It’s not in the head. It’s a nervous system issue from extreme stress and lack of sleep or too much sleep at times. You are smart and you can do everything. Life is fun just feel it. All you to do is breathe and enjoy Gods creation. I am praying that you get out of depression. Let me know how you are doing.

[SsgCulldelight]

Hey, you are the Answer NOT the problem. You must do YOU you cannot wait for validating of any sort from your patents at this point, you can't change or augment what they believe about you. Put your head up, make a routine with diet, walks and focus time without this phone or computer, ignite them if you must, be cordial but always be shit YOUR business. Sometimes you have to cut people off from access to YOU so they can Know that you Don't need them. I mean this in the kindest form I really do, if they are Not helping not supporting you mentally and spiritual ly you Have CHOICE as a weapon and to protect and Heal yourself you MUST use it. If they're providing housing and necessities be cordial and thankful, that's All you have to do, don't lock yourself in the bedroom or feel obligated to sit and watch TV or have dinner with them, just have someplace else to be. You have a pond or lake by your house, saddle up n walk there or drive, that's peaceful and most other people are doing it for that reason. Remove as much sugar as u can from your diet, it's a stimulant and fogs your brain among other issues. Hey into to YOU and don't stop. Hope it helps. Love n light.

[froggymom88]

Dearest CatPrimus Don't look for validation from others, especially when they are unkind. You know what you are feeling and so does God. I get so down sometimes but I have found prayers of gratitude to God helps significantly to move me out of it. I will put you on my prayer board and pray for you every day

spiritual hugs

[LOOK58]

Hi CatPrimus I most definitely believe you! Well as far as your stepdad goes have him read Jay Glazer's book Unbreakable or GooYoigle and watch some of his podcasts. While your at it have your " Mental Health Profesional " Mother and I'm not being hard on your Mom. It will show them that ANYONE regardless of their toughness or money did not ask for this as you did not either. It will describe Perfectly what your daily life is like. There are others also. Take care of yourself and keep moving forward. I repeat keep moving forward and force yourself to exactly the opposite of what your illness in your brain is telling you. You still can do ANYTHING you want to do WITH your illness Not Against it.

[Kitkatbar]

one thing or maybe two is a good therapist … definitely not your stepmom. She just a mouthbreather and is just working for a paycheck and there are actually people who cares more about others than their own family. 2nd you need to get properly medicated. Don’t believe in the nonsense that you don’t need meds. Depression is not a self induced psychosis (ok maybe for the nut jobs lol) 😆 I’m 59 and I fight with it everyday. I use to think about suicide a lot now I’m just too damn old to do anything about it… and the new med I’ve been taking has actually emboldened me or is it that I finally don’t give a da&$ anymore and stop being a doormat. Oh well?!

I’m telling you it’s hard. Everyday is a battle with yourself and with others. No one will understand you. Mental illness is not understandable to normal people and it’s hard on them too. It’s not easy. Take a very very special person to be with someone who has this illness and I haven’t found anyone that can be that person..heck I even had a therapist dump me. I’m still here. It’s not all sunshine and roses, but you can have days of pretty blue skies and warm sunshine. So hang in there.