Bad thoughts

[ashleybakerr01]

Im not sure why im having these thoughts right now..but they're pretty strong. Its taking A lot not to do any self harm..im too scared to tell anyone about this because I Don't wanna go back to the mental ward. The adult ward is actually kinda scary not gonna lie. You don't know who your roommate is gonna be. Some older guys last time made me very uncomfortable with the inappropriate things they'd say amd how they would look at me.. Im just overall not feeling good this evening and not sure what to do about it

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breathe

It will pass

You are stronger then your thoughts

[RupertBrown]

Sorry you are feeling this way. The best thing I could do is try to distract myself until it eased up a little. May or may not work for you. I would clean, find something to organize or just watch a movie or read. Sending courage and peace.

[ashleybakerr01]

I'm at the point I don't care what really happens to me anymore. I keep almost passing out bc my head and ears and getting chest pains off and on , when I do it's like a burning and tight feeling. I want get checked out to help the situation but I'm also just done caring..😢 whatever happens happens😕.

[Adamj in reply to ashleybakerr01]

go get checked out if you feel it’s that strong but I can say I experienced the same thing. Half the time idk if I’m coming or going anymore it’s so frustrating. Not caring is one of those weird things because deep down that part of your brain will come out randomly and force you to care I get random waves of wanting to care

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Adamj]

I have really bad health anxiety too and I dont know half the time if I shouuld be seen or wait it out bc its anxiety. But I've had this issue fir over a week now and I know it isnt anxiety bc im calm and fine when i get dizzy lately. Part of me does care, but also a major part just gave up caring if that makes sense. Im so used to things going wrong right after the other, or itll seem good for a day or few days then get bad again.

[Nothing_but_books]

I care about you. This is a good place to come when you can't tell anyone else. We've been hurt too.

What would help you now? Share with us and maybe we can help.

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Nothing_but_books]

I may just go get checked out to help my mind relax and calm down. I know i shouldn't be getting dizzy like this. Im not sure what tests will need done tho

[Adamj in reply to ashleybakerr01]

they may test you for vertigo which usually they make you lay flat and then turn your head to the side and your eyes should twitch which they did the vertigo test on me and I was like my eyes are twitching are they and they were like nope I was like yeah I know and I’m still dizzy also have had fluid in my ears for about 2-3 months nothing helps it. Have you ever been tested for POTS?

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Adamj]

No. Whats POTS? Ive also had fluid around ear drums for months. Nothings helped me either. I get ear infections a lot anymore.

[Adamj in reply to ashleybakerr01]

I’m not sure how to explain POTS but it seems like a lot more younger females are getting diagnosed with after they’ve been gaslighted and told they only have anxiety

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Adamj]

How do i bring that up to my Dr? To get tested for it

[ashleybakerr01 in reply to Nothing_but_books]

Ive been trying to wait it out for days. Nothings been getting better really. So maybe it's time i go get checked out. Make sure its nothing serious. Im trying to take care of myself but mental health makes it so hard to do at timez 😢

[lovemydoggy in reply to ashleybakerr01]

You should get it checked out. If nothing else you’ll know you’ve done something to take care of yourself.

[primrose81]

You are so right when you say that about self-care being so hard; when I am badly depressed which is most of the time, I don’t take showers, wear the same clothes for days etc. Even now I am still a bit shower-phobic as tend to be wary of water after having nearly drowned twice years ago…do so hope you feel better soon Ashley x

[Zhangliqun]

What is causing this desire to self-harm? And do you mean suicide or cutting?

[Tara52]

So sorry for what you are going through. I suffered with fearful thoughts constantly for years. We don't have to fall victim to those thougts though. We can kick them out and choose better ones. I found CBT (Cognitive Behavior Therapy) to be helpful with that. You can find examples of it on YouTube. Take good care of yourself. 💗

[Spooky99]

I’m sorry you feel this way! It’s a safe place here to vent. Try your best not to feed into this disease. Distract yourself , clean or read. Watch a movie or exercise. I promise it always passes. In the moment I know it doesn’t matter, and all the negativity takes over. By the time your reading this I’m sure your ok!!! Mental anxiety sucks! Hugs