My anxiety is really high and bad thought are in my head.

So some of you probably read my morning post. I decided not to go back to the call center. So I thought I'm gonna bake some cookies and cake pops. Well cookies came out good. Because my anxiety is at all high I screwed up the cake pops. My stomach is so swollen because of the stress. I didn't sleep last night. My head hurts and all I have been doing is crying. I don't think I'm ready to tell my parents. But if I keep on going back and forth I'm gonna be spending money I don't have. I just want this to Finish. I can't get my life together. I haven't done anything stupid Because all I do is think of my mom Because she will get sick. I'm such a mess of a person. I don't know what happen to me. I was not like this. If I only had the courage to end it.

[fauxartist]

I'm sorry your going through all this, do you take any meds to help.

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I'm not taking meds. I'm too scare of them.

[JuneVas in reply to Hidden]

I’m on meds and they are a life saver for me! I was scared too!

[Blondyjuju in reply to JuneVas]

Hi wat meds helped you?

[JuneVas in reply to Blondyjuju]

I am on Paxil.

[Hidden in reply to JuneVas]

That was the most effective for me, I had unusual weight gain on it but it was a miracle at the time.

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Hi Gabby. When I worked at the call center, I couldn’t handle it. In fact, my anxiety got so high, my psychiatrist sent me to a day hospital program. I also was lucky enough to find a new job. The call center job was a poor fit. I knew the information for the job, but the anxiety was high. Every morning, before work, I would become physically ill. Don’t beat yourself up. You gave it your best shot. Please feel free to pm me and I can tell more. Take care of yourself.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Yeah I know. I'm in the process of looking for another one. Hopefully my parents don't noticed that I don't have a job.

[TriggerPoint]

There Are Times In Life [ When It Comes To Us Personally ], Our Courage Comes From Simply Saying, " I Don't Care ". Shocked ?...Don't Be... I'm Not Talking About Not Caring About One's Self. I Am Talking About Our Anxieties & Phobias. That SAME Anxiety You Have At Home Is The Same Anxiety You'll Have Out There. The Same Developed Phobias We Have At Home Is The Same Phobias We'll Have Out There.... What's There ?... LIVING Our Lives.... You Have To Come To The Point Where You Say, "I'd Rather Die Living My Life Than Die In The Fetal Position In A Closet".... When It Comes To Anxieties Which Can Develop Phobias, Your " I Don't Care " Attitude Is Actually A "Self Preserving Device" ! When Fear Realizes It Can't "Control" You Anymore ? It Starts To BACK OFF. It Realizes It's Wasting It's Time.

Prayers~*

Pause & Calmly Think About That.

[Agora1 in reply to TriggerPoint]

You speak the truth TriggerPoint.. xx

[Jadely in reply to TriggerPoint]

Your commentary is so encouraging. May you be blessed!