Am i going crazy ?

[Kevin160]

I know you guys hear this all the time, but sometimes im really worrying that im going crazy or this anxiety will control my life

I am very forgetful, i feel everything is taking a toll on me

The main fear comes from certain thoughts , for example if i watch a horror movie, i freak out that it will happen to me , wheather its a curse or a serial killer etc.. i never had that this severe before, yes we all fear stuff but i feel like i cant convince myself sometimes that its a movie , im not sure if im convinced or just that the idea is scary to me if it happened in real life, im really superstitious so recently i have been overthinking alot of mental diseases, physical diseases, worrying that some of them are gonna get to me , im getting the worst case scenarios even when im calm , they just rush to my head for no reason and i start to tense up, dont get me wrong i have been feeling alot better and im not getting any panic attacks , but sometimes i get these scary thoughts for no apparent reason such as getting a scary disease or something bad happening and i feel myself going crazy like im not myself sometimes and i worry that i will never be the same...i try to do breathing and relaxation techniques and they help mostly in calming me but the thoughts stay , and sometimes im worried im gonna lose control of my thoughts and get crazy , like sometimes i get the urge to say things i shouldnt to people, like sometimes i feel i dont have control over my actions and the things i do seem out of impulse ..im really struggling with this

[Hidden]

If you are frightened when watching some films,, why watch them ? Especially if the picture or program finishes just before bed time .

For above, Anxiety, possibly Depression have you discussed your concerns at the Doctors ?

BOB

[Kevin160 in reply to Hidden]

well sometimes i domt watch them, sometimes you stumble across things online, hear stories from friends , see something on the tv , see something in real life , for example the other day a person had a seizure in front of me , i felt really scared because everything happened so fast and basically a metre beside me , so sometimes you cant escape everything that scares you amirite?But as a superstitious person and an anxious person hiding from things is scary thats why sometimes i try my best to work through my fears because i cant live like this right ?

Also im 18 , im not scared of the movie for example , its what it causes to me since my anxiety disorder started, the racing thoughts, the panic feeling, the heart racing , sometimes the idea itself isnt scary but the effect on my body reminds me of the panic attacks, the rock bottom feeling where you feel hopeless , all the night i was scared of going to bed from all the panic, the high bp , the high pulse , the shortness of breath, the health anxiety, the physical symptoms, the pain , the helplessness, all that its what it represents

[Hidden in reply to Kevin160]

Try Breathing Techniques when stressed that may help you calm your Anxiety.

Consider Mindfulness a Relaxation Technique, books can be found on Amazon £8.00 STG. That is a useful way to calm your mood when stressed or actually getting to sleep

You may benefit from some Therapy your GP can if needed arrange a course of six seasons, that may help you in showing various techniques to move on and control your Anxiety. Medications may also be given although your GP and Therapist will decide if these are needed

BOB

[NeuronerdDoaty]

In healthcare we always say if you can ask the question then you have no worries. If you’re crazy you don’t know to ask.

[Kevin160 in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Thank you so much ❤️

Im trying my best to keep calm , thankfully its working better than before where my anxiety is very mild and less frequent which im proud of , but the thoughts creep up even when im not anxious and it makes me feel uneasy

[MeowMeow0575]

Kevin you are NOT CRAZY! You have anxiety and a racing mind like me. Do you have someone to call when you’re having those thoughts? It helps. You are not at all alone. Try listening to music when you have these thoughts. I too can be impulsive and flighty, but I’m also thoughtful and fun. Focus on the good things. You can control yourself by refocusing on something that makes you happy. Try to write when you’re having thoughts, that’s helped me! You can always find me kevin!

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[Kevin160 in reply to MeowMeow0575]

Thank you so much ❤️

I will try my best to calm myself down when i get these thoughts , im working on techniques breathing techniques and relaxation techniques and stuff and they work well mostly so thats good

[Mrspjsmom]

You're not going crazy. I hope you talk to your therapist about this and if you take medication for anxiety please talk to your doctor too. I sometimes wake up in the midst of a panic attack. No rhyme or reason as to when but I find at times if I am anxious my mind reflects the anxiety in my sleep. Also, depending on where you live winter can be difficult. Keep moving forward one step at a time. Sometimes we have to take things one day at a time or even one hour or minute at a time. HUGS and BLESSINGS!

[Kevin160 in reply to Mrspjsmom]

Yea it is just starting to get cold where i am and i can feel the anxiety worsening , also because the first time i got a panic attack and my anxiety disorder sort of got triggered was in december , and throughout the winter break it was hell , literal hell i cant comprehend how bad everythingwas mentally and physically, i couldnt get out of bed out of fear, always shivering, always high bp, and pulse , but since then i have gotten so much better and realized so much , so im sort of happy and also scared to experience this seaon again because i want to prove to myself that i can be ok and do well mentally but at the same time i know i might crumble and feel terrible at times because im still not that strong mentally , so its complicated

[Mrspjsmom in reply to Kevin160]

Post and reach out here anytime you need to. I'm not going to lie getting better is hard work and you still have some horrible days. But you can do this. I know you can.

[Kevin160 in reply to Mrspjsmom]

Yeah its been almost a year since my anxiety disorder intensified and started to really affect my life, but i have been working hard since then and im feeling much better, ofcourse bad days are ahead , but gold ones too