I was laying on for years about my health laying it on thick, getting her to solve my legal and background matters, I have my ups and downs like herself, I have had blank periods whereby nothing goes or comes out due to an especially bad time, epilepsy, early dementia, prostate cancer, etc, it could be a year, anytime at all, in all that time there was no mention of what my sister had suffered, she said she had been through what she called her "nutty period" when she was assaulted in England. Another sister who lives near by just 'hoped' she would just get back to 'normality', not really telling me she had PTSD [diagnosed 2012] her son obviously not aware of the true situation belittling her all the time! Then I got PC and told her of my progress, she almost had a mental breakdown! I FINALLY found though contacts via other siblings that she did have PTSD, the rest of the siblings at least could have illuminated me on her true condition after 10 years, they ALL know I am aware of medical matters having been on HU for seven years a regular well known lab. rat in my area!
I feel dreadful I am wailing through ... - Anxiety and Depre...
I feel dreadful I am wailing through my usual dreadful medical disorders, but was not aware that my wee sister had PTSD for ten years!
Maybe they didn't wanted to bother you becauseee of al your heavy problems, PC, dementia, being a labrat, like you call it. And the PTSD sister sounds like she maybe had also some denial or acceptance issues, which makes it also harder to talk.
Will cut myself off from my family, they get 'sick' of my heavy health problems, hurts them mentally, I was a survivor, although PC could be last, getting some real bad effects now. Good medical crowd around me aware of my unusual medical history [some of the weird medical 'inspections' I've been through in the last year🤔🙄] She has too many internal scars for me to add to, will just keep stom about me!
Then you would be doing the same as what pains you about your sister. Is that what you really want?
They in reality would prefer that, I am an embarrassment to them, not really able to cope with my endless medical episodes. Some of my siblings live far away, will leave my medical progress, to my medical 'crew' my siblings cannot do anything medically about me! I have been through so many of these medical disasters, and survived, I am cursed medically, but survive, no matter what!
Your last note is very strong!
But the first part... are they your own thoughts? Who would be able to cope with endless medical **** happening to them? There's no embarrassment needed.
Nani got it sorted out, with my wee sister and family, she finds my health matters "a bit strong" grinds against her PTSD, I can relate to that, seemingly now family are getting closer, emails reviving old family memories, ironic I think everyone now on same field!
I hadn't been online since my last reaction, sorry. But this is supergood news! You're even growing closer together now! That must feel so good for you!
Ironically bumped into walking past the health centre, getting my first PC injection, first time I'd seen her this year, laid it all straight
[Before I was so rudely interrupted laptop🙄] should know by next week, exactly, how bad my PC is🤞 She was actually smiling!👍
Wow what "coincidence" (or not), but you stepped right up! That's strong of you! Well hopefully it will keep going well now. I hope also your PC doesn't turn out that bad!
😏 Straightened things with sister, on level plain there! My prostate cancer results have not been shown to me, just by another set of MRI's thrown at me, I feel okay but...🤞
Ohw okey, so some further research is needed? I'll keep my fingers crossed for you too. And I hope things will stay well with your sister!
It's everything with my sister trying to come out of her PTSD, she does not know how bad I am, I'm terminal since July 2021, she give me her symptoms, whenever I 'mention' mine "you are so insensitive!" [practically boo! hoo!] I try to text her on my simple text phone, she goes off in a complete tangent, [she does not know my full medical situation, I love her, but the truth might send her over the top? ]whenever trying to reply, my hands start shaking, a sure sign for an aura [for my impending last seizure?] my other sister relies on her 'god' to see her through? Apparently🙄my PC seems🤞 under control but interest in my 'bones' especially in my rib cage is 'causing' interest by 1st October seven MRI's of chest and body to July 2021🥴😵 not very good? If I have one more epileptic seizure will probably be my last!"
Ok must not be so pessimistic🙄 it is five MRI's not seven!🥴 Do they keep these records, or maybe recycle them? Where!
Sorry, I don't totally get it. She says to you that you're insensitive when you're talking about your symptoms? Maybe thats becauseee you're not telling her everything? Are you really terminal? That's heavy. Do your doctors say that or do you feel like that? Because I don't have experience with, but 1 year terminal is quite long right?
What's with your ribcage, so that was last year? Is it okey now?
It's too complicated? She is in a bad way mentally I am in a bad way physically! If she found out the actual truth about my terminal state, goodness knows what might happen? My terminal state was diagnosed last year! My ribcage is an ongoing story? As you say heavy, heavy!
I tend to be very dark humour about my health, helps me 'joke' about my general health, which has always been bad throughout my life, my sister had a reacurrence of her PTSD just before I had my terminal diagnosis, now she she thinks he is getting sick again [but will survive he always does] thus she calls me a hypochondriac now, even when I got PC three months ago, she thinks I should give her more respect, be less insensitive to her especially, I have to bite me lip when talking to her now! She says something that is wrong with her, she does not want to hear anything about my medical woes, has always treated me as a survivor, will ALWAYS get through anything?
Yes they are tired of me endlessly being sick, time after time, new or old conditions, I am cursed because it has happened for so long! I am embarrassed about my sister's PTSD in that my family did not tell me, they 'hid' it away from me and themselves, I was getting so cross because I knew there was something wrong, and could not identify it myself, the complete ignorance shown by my family in that they did not have the gumption to ask her in ten years, the phrases they were saying about her behind her back, I unfortunately have the medical knowledge, just by pure experience across the medical stratum, she let slip that she had PTSD herself after she conquered a major obstacle, in her life. Just bad timing on my part, but she was never a major point in the families conversations, an embarrassment like my cursed medical history! The family has grown apart in the last fifteen years!
I’m sorry to hear that. I’m not meaning to be nosy, but I’m wondering what happened to her that she suffers from PTSD. At any rate, try to be there for her. We all have our own trials and tribulations. We all need to realize that the world does not revolve around us. I hope she is getting some kind of help or therapy.
She is getting professional therapy, and her family [and me] is now more aware of the trials and tribulations she has gone through and are there if she needs us in the future👌
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