Why am i not allowed to feel my emotions? Why am i not allowed to feel my anger?

[Against_the_current]

I probably better quit everything as ppl are telling me to not be angry. I'm just losing it. Everything i tried failled. I guess i'm just sentence to be broken till the end of my life and ppl will hate me for being broken. I'm naive and i believe i can get help. I'm really broken right now. And with a lot of pills in my blood. For my allergy, calm down,they're for allergy. I got so damn sad reading.

I'm a really peaceful being and when i get angry, i'm angry on purpose. But why doesn't anyone let me be angry? Why doesn't anyone let me feel my feelings? Now i'm painfully numb and wondering why. People tell me to get it out but i'm not allowed to. I'm just mad. But i can't even feel it. I got a raah of cold and i couldn't even feel it. I'm dead.

(I'm mad because ppl don't let me be mad at the ******** baby. **** you and your uncounscious drive for life. I have a lot of pills in my blood. Pills for allergy, don't worry, i'm not doing anything stupid. Because i can't be any more dead than i am now)

[Blueruth]

Nobody is telling you your feelings are invalid. I tried to help you make sense of the situation. Do you have a therapist? Text just seems so inadequate and not helping. If I may… I sense frustration and you have expressed fear. Those combined with emotional pain become anger. It makes you fight back which is a good thing when there is an immediate threat. If not it is probably not serving you. The baby can’t threaten you but maybe you are frustrated by not being seen as you have expressed? If you don’t feel seen you may be fearful of something else? Not saying you don’t feel it… just that an in person conversation would help you understand what is really going on.

In each post you talk about a lot of different issues that are difficult to address in text.

You are seen and heard here. We are not trying to cause further pain.

[Against_the_current in reply to Blueruth]

I have a therapist. And yes my anger is actually fear and frustration as Yoda says

[Marysblue]

I hear you if you express your feelings even in a mild way, most people go off on you. Happened to me today.

[Against_the_current in reply to Marysblue]

I'm sorry. It feels terrible. And just makes us more angry. I'm a really sweet person and If i'm angry i have a reason to be. Also supressing my anger Led me to chronic illnesses that almost killed me. But no people want everything sugar coated

[hypercat54]

It is true that it's healthy to let your anger out - but just not on others unless they really deserve it. Even then you can't take words back so try and keep all your words soft and sweet as you never know which ones you might have to eat.

There are a lot of socially acceptable ways to get your anger out eg taking up a sport, bashing your pillow, going for a long walk, and even turning it into laughter instead. I guess you don't like others getting angry with you do you? So why should they like it either. Treat others as how you would like to be treated yourself and you will find some answers.

You can look at anger management courses as there is lots of advice on the net and also on google. I understand you have no medical help so you will have to go the self help one instead if you are to get anywhere.

Good luck.

[Daesin]

Your anger is misplaced and therefore harmful to you and others. What you feel is valid, how you behave is problematic.

[Lve2dance]

I'm with you.. I can't go into details.. For me it is an inconvenience for others.. Get over it.. Walk it off..

[Lve2dance]

I can't get help because I'm given options be put away or med. I just want to talk to someone in person who doesn't judge me or make me rationalize

[Against_the_current in reply to Lve2dance]

Same. Everyone judges me

[Lve2dance in reply to Against_the_current]

My parents mom and step dad the most of all.. They are supportive in other areas. But I get more unconditional support from anywhere else.

[Against_the_current in reply to Lve2dance]

I understand. Tell me If i can help somehow

[Lve2dance in reply to Against_the_current]

Sweet.. It's fine as long as I am on the site, but I get back to my situation here and it's ground zero

[Against_the_current in reply to Lve2dance]

Same

[Lve2dance]

I actually look forward to going to work

[Against_the_current in reply to Lve2dance]

That's so impressive! Good job! I'm absolutely deabilitated from my trauma. I just had classes and now i can't breathe, my brain veins are spasming and i feel like i'm going to throw up

[Lve2dance in reply to Against_the_current]

Wow I'm so sorry

[Adlon57]

Speaking from experience, it does not help, there are a lot of us around, I have been sick ALL my life, always felt angry at everybody, including myself, those people who 'look' at you, believe me, have those feelings sometimes deep, but always around! Pills do not help in the long run, a temporary relief maybe, but not the answer. I have had quite a selection of pills through my system, now pain killers do not work on me, a high pain threshold, not to be recommended? I have a deep anger in myself, an anger at others who seemingly do not understand my plight, maybe some do, but there are others, believe me who can sympathise with your plight! Some people think I am just a peaceful intellectual nerd [I love history] but there are others who know I have a 'darker side' a really bad temper, usually my closer friends and relatives, but now I have to curb this temper I have terminal epilepsy [one more seizure will be my last] what sets these seizures off depression and loss of temper, I have had to look inside myself, meditate theologize, look forward for the good things just around the corner, what is possible you could do, what you could achieve, look to your possible future not one of your downers your present period! I have not long on my 'clock' but a full retirement in a couple of months is my light at the end of my tunnel?👍👍