I don't know if this will make sense. I can't think and I have a splitting headache.
My depression is getting worse. I cry all the time. I have a lot of problems, lots of pain and and I am fed up. My husband has been very supportive and understanding but I'm scared that one day he'll get tired of the whole situation and me.
Besides all my health problems I have a sister who is making my life miserable by treating me badly, blaming me for all the bad things that happen to her, and screaming at me all the time.
She's several years older than me, I'm the youngest of the family, and she's been nasty to me all my life. When I was little she used to hit me. Actually, she has been nasty to everybody inside the family, including both our parents. She's the type of person who treats people in a position of inferiority badly.
We have an oldest sister who is bedridden and our only brother, who was my favorite sibling, passed away 3 years ago. His death devastated me. Since then my life has turned into hell because now I have become my sister's 'only' victim.
We now live in different countries and she's the one that takes care of all the family matters. She's good at it, but she has an extremely bad temper and she blames me for everything that goes bad. She acts very different with outsiders, she is nice, lovely, caring, generous with them.. They have no idea the kind of person she is.
I try not to get in touch with her much to avoid a confrontation but of course there are times when I need to contact her and I am terrified to do it.
This is literally killing me...
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We have broken relationships with my brother and his family. They are looking toward the future without us. It hurts my parents, my mum in particular and I find it disgusting behaviour - family is supposed to be there for you but no. It is because they cope and make sure you do not. We are getting used to situation and now building for future without them - which now we hope for.
Thank you so much, Hb2003. I just need to vent. It's so hard..
I'm sorry. Do you have a therapist? People like your sister are really hard to deal with. I've dealt with those like her both in the real world and the virtual world (on here). As you know, such people feel entitled to hurt others through bullying and spreading rumors. I'm not sure where they get that idea since nobody has the right to do such things. I don't know what to say except be strong. You know you're a good person, so hang onto that. It hurts I know, but we have to try and not let these kind of people get to is.
I understand what you're saying, MinnieMouse. Since all this started when I was little she took advantage of that and I never learned how to defend myself and I allowed her to almost destroy me. That's a fact. It's a long story. Now I live very far away from her and you would think that should make a difference but it doesn't. I still need to get in touch with her. I wish I could stop doing that but I can't and she knows it.
I used to have a therapist but one day he disappeared.. literally. He was the best. I haven't found one yet, it hasn't been easy because of the pandemic. but I've been thinking about it.
Maybe you could try some imagery for your interactions with her. Something to lessen her impact on you, so to speak. I've learned a few over the years, like putting a cartoon voice to her voice or giving her her own soundtrack.
I'm sorry your therapist disappeared. How weird. Good luck in your search for a new one👍
Awesome! Glad to be of service to you!😁An example of what I mean: I had this one co-worker who bullied me very badly. (It turned out that she was jealous of me, but that's besides the point). My therapist suggested whenever she bickered, I should imagine her doing it in the voice of a cartoon character. Or, whenever we needed to talk to each other, I could imagine the "Law and Order" theme song playing in the background.
This might come in handy wih the therapist disappearance (very odd, btw). "The case of the missing therapist"
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I don't know how to do those things but thank you for that. I needed it. 
Why can't I make any damn decisions without freaking out?
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