I really am struggling

[Adamj]

I don’t know how much more of this I can take I haven’t felt like myself for weeks/months after having that panic attack while trying to get a stress test and the wave of constant panic attacks during that week after. I do try and get out I’m doing okay with it but I noticed I’m getting dizzy or lightheaded when I go out idk if it’s psychosomatic or the stomach pills they have me on. I’m tired of feeling like I’m not alive my brain is so numb I don’t think clearly. I’m tired of trying their medicines I’ve yet to give Buspar another shot because I really hate dizziness. I’ve never ever felt like this before in my life I’ve dealt with panic attacks but they weren’t like this the panic attacks I use to have when I was 16 were like surges of adrenaline this is idk not adrenaline it doesn’t feel like adrenaline at all. I’m tired of it feeling like my throat gets tight and I can’t swallow or breath tired of the body aches and pain especially in my sternum and around my sternum tired of the weird sensations that go down my arms tired of not having emotions tired of not feeling real or being able to think about the crazy stuff I use to be able to think about my brain just feels like it’s not working properly wish I had a therapist that would actually help me instead of screaming just take the medicine and wouldn’t cut appointments short for whatever reason the doctors just say it’s all anxiety I feel like I’m insane I’ve never felt like this before or even so long it sucks I think I’ve reached the point of fatigued it’s hard to even go for walks I do get sleep at night but it’s riddled with a whole bunch of crazy vivid dreams. I just don’t know what to do anymore I really don’t I’m stuck I hate feeling like this I know I’m not alone but most days it’s like oh I woke up again.

[b1b1b1]

If your psychiatrist is not helping you or understanding your situation, have you thought about looking for a new one? I know they are not so easy to find, but it might be worth starting to look around. I am not a doctor, but I also do wonder if an SSRI that is supposed to be more calming, such as Zoloft would be more helpful.

[secrets22]

oh Adamj ,i hear you and your feeling are very much like mine,and its awful,giddiness ,light headed,and feel i'm going to topple over,and i have concluded that medication and pills only cloud our problems and dont solve them,consequently i have come off all medication,and i do feel more able than i have for years.i dont know what the answer is,but i sincerely wish you well.

[Willow2022]

I agree with finding a different psychiatric and physiologist. Sometimes they aren’t a good fit. Anxiety is so so difficult as it can manifest as so many things. If you have been diagnosed with anything, it is okay to say the meds you are on aren’t working like they should. Keep trying. You are worth it.

[404Error]

I have dreams that are so vivid that I don't know if I've really done that or not. Usually conversational. I'm not on any medication but panic attacks I've had in the past are helped with OTC stuff you take for airplanes or train rides. Motion stuff. It calms my can't get a breath or over-breathe issue. Last night I got four hours of full sleep for the first time in quite a while without my liquor medication. I identify with most of what you are saying and waiting for that I woke up again mentally feeling. I haven't felt "fresh" in many years. Your helping me so stick around and share so I can have a sense of what's next. New to this chat thing, so I apologize for any and everything I may have said or did wrong. I'm trying something different because....

[catch_the_music]

When I am stressed out or panicked - I like to pray out to God and ask Him for something calming to focus on. Things to focus on like the book of Psalms in the Bible. (But you, Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, the One who lifts my head high. Psalm 3:3). That is just one example of many great words in the Psalms. They help to calm down my day. Blessings to You!