Rashes, brain fog and derealization

[Kevin160]

Hey everyone, i have been struggling with alot of physical symptoms that are really worsening my anxiety, these last 2 weeks i had a few pimples on my shoulders that turned into a full body rash, after going to 2 dermatologists they told me its stress acne, although i took accutane in the past and im not new to stress, they seemed pretty stuck to their opinion so maybe it is from stress

Im struggling with brain fogs, difficulty concentrating, and memory problems, i feel like my body is falling apart mentally and physically and im barely into my 20s

I know i can turn on my logic thinking and say it could be from finals, and the stress we are all in due to covid, but i felt like i handled it ok , and also with each time i handke stress and start to calm down, i forget to continue with the calming techniques because i feel i dont need them because at that time i dont, then anxiety waves come back and i forget how to handle them

I have been getting these bad depression and anxiety attacks at night with alot of intrusive thoughts, maybe because im usually out or with people during the day so isolating at night seems the best time for my demons to haunt me.

Im just really annoyed that i kept telling myself finish the semester and then you will not take a summer semester because u need the mental break, but even with nothing on my plate i dont feel ok .

Not necessarily anxiety but rather the depression and the unease feeling, like something is akways on the back of my mind and i cant seem to relax from this tension

[newbie1956]

Hi Kevin,

I assure you, stress can cause all your issues and more.

It can turn a flawless complexion into a scarlett red mess.

Happens when anxiety & worry take over.

The solution is simple. Really.

It will ebb and flow, yes...let it go. Time is your friend!

I love you

Agape

[Kevin160 in reply to newbie1956]

Yes i know that deep down, its just that im so scared, every time i handle anxiety for a bit, time passes and i feel great again, then i forget how it felt to be this hopeless and it hits me like a big wave, and i have to start over, i will give my therapist a call soon, its for the best

Thank you so much , all the love❤️

[EndUser13]

I don't know your story, but much of what you've said resonates with me, it reminds me of my issues with PTSD.Ironically I think I've had more acne as an adult than I ever did as a teenager

😂

I especially like what you said about relaxation techniques, you sound very wise in your self-reflection.

[Kevin160 in reply to EndUser13]

Its really odd as i never had body acne even as a teenager, i was surprised that through all my life of anxiety now i get acne? Im 20 and i took accutane so it was weird. The relaxation techniques are good once you get used to them, for me its a cycle of being inconsistent with them, then getting better once i get used to them, then getting better mentally , so i stop, then deteriorate then back to the beginning.

Im hit with this wave on depression, feeling hopeless and im really feeling it

[EndUser13 in reply to Kevin160]

I understand the 'feeling out of practice' part, I've tried to make some of my coping techniques routine. A therapist I had once told me to try to think of three things you can easily remember to tell yourself when you start to feel anxious (of course this could work for depression too).

Recently I started writing on my tablet (I guess you'd call it journaling). I find that when I get the words out of my head and see them on the page I'm better able to consider them or get stuff out of my head that's been bugging me without rambling to someone else. One thing I try to practice is naming a number of things I am grateful for daily, I find that gratitude is one of the keys to happiness. Perhaps this might help? I know when you're depressed everything can seem hollow or like some kind of rote, but occasionally something will strike a meaningful chord.

[Kevin160 in reply to EndUser13]

Yeah i totally relate and your advice is really helpful, especially since most of my depression comes when im tired, havent slept, etc.. so i had a good night sleep yesterday and im feeling alot better today, it happens in episodes, im aware of it and i know its nit permenant and i know it gets better but its so powerful when its happening you tend to get lost and feel hopeless and its really frustrating.

[EndUser13 in reply to Kevin160]

It truly can be quite a monumental effort to get out of bed and be productive when you feel stuck in a rut like that. I wish the best for you! Sometimes if I feel a bit too anxious I might go outside (something I hate) and force myself into things, I think it's useful to force yourself into things when you feel depressed as well. It might feel like you're going through the motions but then you can appreciate that you got something done. Lots of baby steps add up!

[Kevin160]

Thank you so much, all of our time is limited you never know, althought i mean i try my best to think of time as not the enemy, and i dont really care what happens beyond my control anymore, atleast thats what i tell myself, even when im anxious im not truly worried about what will happen, i just cant turn my brain off thats it, but i think my brain chemistry is off and i need to fix that, i mean im not doing as well as i thought so maybe i need to do something about that.