The last time I was depressed like this was probably around September or October. That’s a long stretch for me so it’s good but I’ve been crying angry yelling cries, wishing I could say some goodbyes, just so exhausted I am just so done with everything and everyone...retreated into myself, letting it build then suddenly stepped back and watched it explode out of my soul...I’m still exhausted, just so done but I let someone in and a new chapter has begun.
Trying
Reach out
Abstract mood art 🖼
Who do want to say goodbye to hun? Let the light in, you rock x xx
It’s hard to talk about maybe my dad maybe everyone
I don’t want you to leave ❤️❤️❤️ Your amazing kind and caring I would be very sad if you left ❤️❤️
(((((((((Hug)))))))) thank you so!!!!! ❤️
❤️❤️❤️❤️ your welcome ❤️❤️
It's a beautiful picture. Did you paint it? Poetry and art. I am glad you came here and reached out. Trying is great! It stinks that it is so damned hard.
Thanks it was photographed of trees from riding in a car
You have a special gift. Something about today's picture touches me. I hope the new chapter contains many good things. You deserve them.
That means a lot to me. I feel a lot from looking at the picture it says a lot about how I see things right now in my life. Thanks for being such a good friend Nothing_but-pain
I won't say you're welcome. You have been a friend to me too.
Sillysausage always breaks the tension and makes me laugh when I'm sad by being a smart aleck. I don't have his gift, but the theme song from "Golden Girls" just popped in my head. "Thank You For Being A Friend". I'd post a link, but I'm not sure how many people would get my sick sense of humor.
((((((((Hug))))))) try us! We may have as sick ya never know
😀 😂 🤣
Heehee 😉
Sometimes I think Sillysausage's style of support is the best! See, we both forgot our troubles for a few seconds and laughed. I wish I could PM and thank him.
Yes 😆 🙃 pm him confuse him
I was serious, I wanted to let him know he is in my thoughts and I appreciate him.
But I am not allowed to PM anyone who doesn't message me first. I don't know why. I asked HU but they gave me a run around.
Oh. No. I’m sorry. I could pm him and say you and I are appreciative of his him and his humor.
If you like. Thanks.
It is a picture of me right now. Thank you for sharing.
❤️
You were the first person on this forum to respond to me with kind and caring words. Please stay strong. Your light was a tether to hope that I haven't felt in a long time. Please know that you helped me when I was down and your kindness is irreplaceable. I know what you're going through. I feel it too, just wanting it to stop. Somehow I got to today and that was no small task. Let me reach out to you from my heart and give you comfort. <3
I am now letting out a sigh 😌 thank you for comforting me thank you for returning the kindness ... I’m trying to stay strong. I’m trying to rest and then I get really excited over something for a short time and then exhausted then deeply depressed again so I need to try for balance that is my one focus
Hi Starlight I've had a few bad weeks coming up to the anniversary today of my sons death it's been 21 years today and it still cuts so deep in my heart I will never get over it. I hope your new chapter fills you with joy. Xx
I am so sorry for your loss. Think of the good times. Laughing with him hugging him all the good stuff
Hi Star. I thought it might be the trees blurred by the wind. Nice photo.
Well that was a good long run of feeling o k. I am sorry you were depressed again. It sounds like you may see some light tho now since you said you let someone in.
I wish you the best. I will be thinking of you.
And I hope the kiddos get back to school soon. I am sure that’s been hard, so you really did well in these most difficult of times.
Take care.
Awww thank you so much. Ha it’s hard but I like my kids home and if my choice is keep them home.
Well good for you then. Enjoy them . You are a good mom and I am glad they contribute to your happiness as I am sure you do to theirs. I have just heard so many parents at their wits end. I should not have assumed all parents are the same.
Well honestly it was reeeeaaaally hard at the beginning but we’ve learned a lot and found our way to a good place when it comes to school. They are in honors and both getting As and Bs they are doing better online at home than when in school.
Big warm hugs Starrlight. Believe me, we understand... but Hun you are strong even when you think you are not. You have a light that the darkness can not power over. 💗
That means a lot thanks I’ll focus on the light
This will pass, Starr. You know that. So just you hang on and wait for the better times. That are coming.
True it will pass. It just feels less lonely to reach out while it’s on me.
Yes, absolutely! ☺️
Hey Starlight, you're awesome and amazing, we all love you on here. I am fighting the darkness myself, I've got my light saber, Luke Skywalker is trying to help me but he's down for the count right now, and so I'm trying to handle this thing but I am not a Jedi master and Yoda would just say DO OR DO NOT DO, THERE IS NO TRY, and I'm like, that just doesn't help me!!! Maybe baby Yoda would be more understanding, or maybe not!!! Anyhow, I truly hope you feel better.🙂💖💖💖
I’m sorry you are in darkness yourself but you are still able to bring light into it with you and share it so thank you and I hope we both will be out of this soon. ❤️ ❤️ ❤️
You're the only other person with bipolar disorder I ever talk to. You can't leave!
Oh I won’t go! Thank you so! Well be here for each other. How are you doing today c-mac? ❤️
I missed this note. I’m good, but realizing I might have the ADHD that my mom, my sister, and my daughter all get treated for. Somehow, I inherited every bad trait either of my parents had, even traits that skipped them, like bipolar disorder, which my grandmother had. But I keep making silly mistakes that make our company look really bad, and I don’t know how to prevent it. I’m basically on probation over it. So I’m going to try to get treatment for ADHD. I think I’ve always gotten by by turning on the charm and using big words so they don’t think I’m a fool. But actually I can’t accomplish following a basic list of instructions! I’ve been a fraud this whole time.
Hi Starrlight, your photo is lovely. So are you. Take a nice break for yourself and have some “me time”. Stay in touch and God Bless you. Let me know I can help.
Thank you so much. I will take a caring break for myself as soon as this school day is finished. Yes let’s stay in touch. Blessings to you. ❤️
I’ve been there too many times trying it alone and feeling so terrible I was done too. Somehow I got myself to hospital, stayed a week and the doctor that ran the psychotherapy floor was great,saw everyone daily and got on-new medication.
What med did you get on? How long will it take? I’m so glad you got some help. Good job to you.
I take Effexor and a mood stabilizer + something for anxiety. I know it sound like a lot but works for me
A different anti depressant and mood stabilizer. Took a day or so but so worth it
Doc said I was bi polar. I’m glad someone finally was helpful with my diagnosis and started the right meds. Thank God I feel almost normal but noticed that I’m eating more - 😬
Happy for you!
I'm good. I actually have my first meeting with a mood disorders support group tonight, so wish me luck. (I'm worried it's going to turn out to be a bunch of crazy people.)
Best to you
Try to keep an open mind so you might enjoy it.
I really did! It was so cool to hear people with such similar experiences to mine!
I would like to find a group like this. How did you find your group, just curious if I could try the same way
Hope you enjoy this website like I do. It keeps me in the present and relieves my anxiety to share my feelings anonymously.
Love it 😍
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