Haven't felt this bad for awhile now but last week I've just been wanting to end it all!!! Hope it passes but not sure. Ever since I moved out of depressing WA state to las Vegas my depression was way better. Now in sunny Utah I'm usually alright. Just started on adderall and I know that's why I'm depressed. I'm feeling rage after taking it. It lasts all day until the pill wears off. Plus I'm super sleepy after taking it. I've got to get extended release tabs at a higher dose cause this 10 mg IR sucks. It's tough cause I really need this pill to work. Adhd is a pain to live with! Depressed mainly from having not a thing in life. Being sober has made life suck more everyday!! When drinking I never felt anxiety this bad!! Currently taking Propranylol for anxiety but not working. I'm still having hard time going outside!! Life sucks! There's nothing to live for. Hope you all have a great day. Sorry for being so negative its just been hard dealing with multiple illnesses!!!!