My life

[blackman79]

I lived a difficult life as a child. I was very shy and afraid. I was mocked by everyone at home, at school, and on the street, because of my weak body and a light voice. I lost confidence in myself. I have not lived my childhood like all children. And the effect on my life as I am a man. Until now, an innocent little child lives inside of me who loves to play. My advice to parents, pay attention to your children and give them love and safety. It is important to build their lives in the future

[Myre]

That was so sweet of you, your childhood may not have been ideal but you did turn out great if that advice is any indication. It's a message that needs to be heard. Thanks for pointing that out.

[HippieChic5 in reply to Myre]

It blows my mind how much we are affected by a bad upbringing. The spirit crushing, heart breaking experiences destroying any self-worth & it’s so deeply rooted that it’s hard to not live as a victim to it. I’m 51 with 45 years of abuse. It’s been a rough life, but I did raise 5 amazing kids by myself and did a decent job. I am a very loving mother & broke the cycle. But I’m a sad person & also feel like a child. I don’t feel like I’ve ever been free to just live & be me. But nothing to hold me back now so I’m fighting & wont give up. I wish I could get a large dose of self-worth dumped on me. It’s hard to just have that.

[Myre in reply to HippieChic5]

I am 16, traumatized as a child and my only trusty means of dealing with such is apathy. I've abolished my capacity for emotional interaction and that hurts so bad cos I feel so much but I am unable to express it. I relate, I can't be myself either to anyone; genuinety is a foreign concept and formality is my mode of communication. But I can see you are a fighter for yourself and your children, many people turn out broken from their experiences but you are not letting that hold you back. You are a truly amazing person, HippieChic5. I would like to take a page from your book when I do have my kids. Our own issues as children should give us even more reason to take real good care of our kids.

[HippieChic5 in reply to Myre]

I was very abused in most ways as a child. Never loved. Alone. So I understand. I wouldn’t abolish communication with others. None of us should be alone. But most people seem to suck so try to find at least one that has a genuine heart that’s honest. And makes you feel better when you’re with them, because they are encouraging & positive. I’m still looking so I’m alone but I have A LOT of fun by myself now and I write a lot.

[Myre in reply to HippieChic5]

Are you a published writer? It's my dream. I have been writing since I was seven. Recently it has become so tough. I have become scared of drafting my thoughts onto paper. I don't feel like myself and my writing reflects that.

By the way, are you into story writing, articles on lifestyle...?

[Hwhme in reply to HippieChic5]

Congratulations on breaking the cycle, give yourself a huge pat on the back.

[blackman79 in reply to Myre]

Thanks for the comment and interest. Welcome