I have been depressed my entire life. My school years were bad. ...lived same town went to same school for 18 years. I was considered poor town person compared to rich farmer's kid. Then marriage to first person, sisters brother in law, who claimed to love me but had problems of his own. Drinking alcohol. Had 3 children but he was gone most of time and we moved from one town to the next for the next 40 something years. I am a widow now and live with my bipolar gdaughter. She spends most of her time at her mothers' or boyfriend. I am left to myself. No friends and when I consider trying to make some I get scared of being hurt (I guess). So I am alone most days. Watch Tv and compute but still want more.....sometimes. What's wrong with me???