Medications and Questions

[casual_nihilist]

I’ve been trying different antidepressants for about 15 years at this point.

Currently on sertraline and bupropion with an emergency stash of lorazepam.

Why is this not enough?

When will it be enough?

What even is enough?

Is this as good as it gets?

How will I ever know?

Should I just settle?

Am I destined for eternally questioning my own existence?

Is it normal to speak to yourself out loud?

Why do I feel so lonely when so many people want to be close to me?

Will I ever be ok?

Why can’t I just be satisfied with being the way I am?

[Theloudone]

I’ve asked myself a few of these questions my self. And I have wondering if meds just don’t work/ or if I just have no hope, or will I have to be on them forever just to feel slightly better.

I had to loose the expectation of the antidepressants being a magic pill that will bring happiness to me.

I was on the same cocktail of meds the beginning of quarantine lol.

I too feel a immense loneliness at times even though I have people who love me.

For me, my depression comes in waves- I have my highs and I have my lows. And I can’t get out of my lows. They come often and I have to fight hard to wade them off, but the meds help. And for now: I can’t judge myself for that.

I talk to myself out loud a lot when I’m alone and especially emotional. I’ll have conversations between two people- it’s almost as if one is ‘good’ and one is ‘bad’. I don’t know if it’s normal, but I do it too

[HeartoftheTriforce]

I take similar stuff and it takes a long time to kick in. It's could also mean you need to up the dosage or switch and try something else. Everyone is different in what they need. Sadly meds cant fix how ur feeling all the way....only take the edge off to make things manageable so you can work through it

[jesca18]

I once was in your shoes. I was frustrated that nothing I tried worked.

I realize everyone is different but once I added abilify to my current antidepressant it was like night and day.. made a huge difference. Abilify also had the same effect for a friend of mine. Just curious if this is one of meds you’ve tried?

[casual_nihilist in reply to jesca18]

I have not tried it. That sounds promising though

[Hidden]

Medications are helpful but there's no magic pill out there and I don't believe there ever will be. I think human connection and finding purpose and meaning in your life is the best way to keep depression at bay.