This is a nightmare

[Plato38]

I have been having what feels like one long panic attack that won't go away. I feel like a terrible feeling of fear and like I'm going to die or go crazy. It's the worst feeling. Like I want to die just to not feel it, although that is ironic since I'm afraid of death. I wouldn't actually hurt myself but the thought is there like this is so unbearable and that scares me as well.anyone else experience this? Helps to not feel alone in what this feels like. I took a Klonopin and that helped a little but the residual anxiety is sooo strong.

[Dakota11]

I feel the same way. Like I can’t take this scared, depression, and anxious feeling anymore. I just want my brain to shut off. I just feel so dark all the time! I hope you feel better soon because this feeling is almost unbearable. I’m here to talk whenever!

[Cajswansea]

It’s been the same for me for nearly two weeks now. I’ve had an episode like this in the past with thinking i’m going to die but with different symptoms.

I’m a nightmare for worrying and googling symptoms. Convincing myself that I’ve got the worst diseases and that i’ll die and leave my children.

I bought some CBD oil today in desperation and a weighted blanket. I’m praying it gives some relief.

Do you find the night time hard? I’m struggling to sleep.

Amy

[Plato38 in reply to Cajswansea]

Amy,

I'm sorry to hear you are going through this as well. I used to find night time the worst, but I take remeron to sleep and I now sleep pretty soundly. I've always had anxiety but just not to this level where I'm having panic attacks and then I'm afraid of having another one because they are just do damn awful. It's a viscous cycle.

[Dakota11]

I’m sorry to hear that. The morning is the hardest for me. I wake up with a panic attack. Every night I’m afraid to wake up in the morning because I have to try and go through another day with panic attacks and anxiety and depression. I’m just so sick of living like this. I’ve tried so many different things that I’m running out of hope.

[Cajswansea in reply to Dakota11]

It really is awful isn’t it. I’m scared of falling asleep cause I’m worried about waking up tomorrow and feeling even worse than the day before.

My weighted blanket has just been delivered so tonight I’m going to try and go to bed with a positive frame of mind that tomorrow will be a better day. I honestly don’t know what else to do.

I’m praying there are better days ahead for all of us. I had no idea how many were suffering until I joined this forum.

[Chefjason in reply to Dakota11]

Mornings are also very tough for me too. I just started meds this weeks so I hope it helps. You’re not alone. We are all here for a reason and to talk. Will all be ok. I truly believe that

[Hidden]

Anxiety is the worst! I’m actually having it now but I just took a xanax for the first time to see how I feel with it. For some reason the tiredness gives me more anxiety, it’s like my brain is fighting to be more active. I’m sorry you’re going through this though. I understand how you feel.

[Cajswansea in reply to Hidden]

I totally understand what you mean about the tiredness giving you anxiety. It’s the same for me. It’s like my body is on constant alert and isn’t allowed t9 relax and fall asleep. When I do finally drift off I usually wake up with a jump.

[Hidden in reply to Cajswansea]

Yeah it’s such a weird feeling, of course with me I notice every feeling in my body and it feels heavy

[Cajswansea in reply to Hidden]

Me too. I’m getting horrible pins and needles and strange buzzing sensations in my legs at the moment it’s torture. I hope you have a good night tonight.

[Plato38 in reply to Cajswansea]

Right. Pins and needles and warm sensations. This is what I've been experiencing all day today.

[Plato38 in reply to Hidden]

I totally get this. I had surgery on my jaw in March and I had so much anxiety over the anesthesia because it made me feel like I wasn't in control. And yes, benzos make you sleepy but they do help with the anxiety. I'm grateful we have them. It's like a security blanket.

[Sailingtoabetterday]

Anxiety fucking sucks. I’ve been struggling for almost two years after a total breakdown. I used to pride myself on not living in fear, now I get afraid of anything and everything! Trying to accept my state if being, but it is so hard considering where I was. I used to have a blind friend who took a year long course in “welcome to your new life” when he went blind. I feel like they need that for Anxiety and depression. I wish I could sometimes feel like things are improving. Take care all