This is my first time joining a community like this and I'm not entirely sure what I'm looking to get out of this, but I figure at the very least I can get this feeling off my chest.
I'm 21 and have struggled with anxiety and depression for the majority of my life. The severity of it always varies, but the one feeling that I can never shake is feeling like I'm in a glass box. Each and every time I interact with anyone I feel like it's always done behind a glass window that no one knows is even there. Somedays it feels like it can get paper thin, but it never truly goes away. It's such a lonely feeling I don't know how to deal with.
At times it makes me feel like a fraud. Like I'm going through the motions of a smiley happy person who is able to interact with others, but I can't shake the fact that I live behind a window pane. I've never really figured out why I feel this way, but I sorta just do. It's really hard for me to explain this feeling to other people and it makes me feel like I'm the only one who feels this way sometimes.
I'm not really sure what I'm looking for posting this, but here it is I guess. Thanks for reading.