I can never wake up and feel normal. It makes me so sad. It's like day after day of just horrible days. I always feel bad, I never feel happy or energized. I just turned 27 yesterday all though I feel like I'm 60.
I have 2 kids and a husband. I love them so much.. I also love my family, but I can't stand the way I feel everyday. It is ruining my life.
I can't do anything without feeling bad.
My chest always hurts, my heart feels like it's barely beating, I feel weak and tired.
I feel like I could die any day... just suddenly die.
That's terrible to think about, but it's the truth. I've had blood work done, scans and all.... they say everything is okay. But I'm not okay, I'm really not okay.
I have nothing that I'm interested in anymore. I love to clean... I also love to decorate and paint my house etc. I have no energy for that. I still clean but when I start to try to do anything that I might enjoy I get so tired and weak and end up crying bc I hate the way I feel.
This past week or so I have felt like the right side of my neck is swollen. I called my doctor and the nurse put me on allergy medicine. It didn't work. I called her back and she said try eat candling. Didn't work. I told her I'm scared it's my thyroid and she said she doubts it. She said it's probably allergy.
That just makes me feel like she doesn't care. What it is a cancerous spot on my thyroid or lymph nodes? It's like they don't care enough about my sorry life to check it.