this is getting ridiculous now

[Adamj]

I know it’s ridiculous me posting multiple times a day about how I’m feeling I know most are probably getting tired of seeing my posts and probably think I don’t listen to what you guys say but I do truly go back and read what you guys have posted.

But this is just getting ridiculous feeling different every month it switches up I truly feel like buspar did more harm than good for me. Though since I’ve stopped taking it a lot of the weird pins throughout my body have eased the dizziness has mostly eased. But now the anxiety feeling actually feels like the intense anxiety wave coming over me that I use to feel when I was 16 it’s so weird and freaks me out like the last two days idk what happened but like I feel the anxiety doom feeling coming over me it doesn’t feel rational but feels all so real when it happens be laying/sitting/driving there and just feel it come over me my body feels like omg something is wrong while that wave comes over me and now I’m back to worrying about my heart and what’s weird about these feelings is it doesn’t really make my heart rate increase I don’t hyperventilate anymore if anything I get so focused on the feeling I forget to breath and like I do get the hot/cold flashes still feeling like ima pass out well my brain is like omg you’re gonna pass out and I don’t they also have me on 40mg of famotdine but I still got gi issues and been told that can also increase my anxiety I wish this all would stop changing it’s getting frustrating and so pissed at myself that I’m like this it’s like living in hell everyday I’m getting tired of being told to not give up hope and such

[Hidden]

It’s okay, post away. I hope you start to feel better.

[b1b1b1]

You will feel improved after you see the neurosurgeon. Do whatever you can to get the app't as soon as possible. The main purpose of speed is to relieve your anxiety. The anxiety about the chiari malformation is quite understandable. Try to take gentle walks close to your house as soon as the weather is a little cooler. Assuming you are in the UK. Post as much as you want. This is necessary as you are going through a difficult time right now.

[Adamj in reply to b1b1b1]

I just had a panic attack because I felt bubbling in my left side like near my ribs I instantly thought it was my heart and my body freaked out like wtf

[Agora1 in reply to Adamj]

Air bubbles can cause that bubbling feeling near your ribs.When we are nervous/anxious, we swallow more air than normal.

When we eat as well as when as we are just breathing. Quite normal

in what you are going through with the wait. xx

[Dolphin14]

It's ok to post. Don't worry about what some may think. They can scroll by.

We are here to support each other, not take each other down. You have so much going on. It's going to stir the anxiety up.

🐬

[TrustYourSoul]

Hi Adam. When you said, "I’m getting tired of being told to not give up hope and such", I am wondering what you would like people to say as they continue trying to support you. You don't really want them to say the opposite, do you?

[Adamj in reply to TrustYourSoul]

I didn’t word that right I’m tired of always being told to not give up hope and such when I just seems like things keep getting weirder and weirder for me and nothing seems to be getting better

[Adamj in reply to Adamj]

Basically it frustrating me because how am I not supposed to give up hope

[TrustYourSoul]

I understand. I've never cared for the word "Hope", mainly because it sounds so passive, like throwing a coin in a fountain and making a "Wish". I think improvement comes when you practice turning negative self-messages into more positive messages. The key is to "practice" converting negative thoughts into more positive ones, all the time when you catch yourself having thoughts of doom and gloom.

The best piano player, violinist, athlete, artist, etc., started off sucking, BUT, they had a dream, kept practicing constantly, and achieved their dream. I hope you start practicing and become a real success story.💜🙇‍♀️

[101315]

If I am being honest, I do not generally follow your posts. You are free to post as often as you like and anyone that would tell you otherwise is not being very supportive.Since this forum is for support, you will at times have to tell parts of your story. There are not very many ways around that. I can not relate to the difficulties you are facing in the sense that I am not experiencing the same.

My anxiety and stress and misery are different, but I recognize that you are lost too.

What do we do ? You are doing it. Keep opening the door and letting people in. Not everyone can be helpful but many will try. I do not have much advice to assist you so I will share with you the one thought that has helped me survive this long.

Tomorrow is not written!

[Lve2dance in reply to 101315]

Like my favorite song unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield

[Cimmy]

Hi Adamj post post post away, I used to post all to regular on this site and the feedback and support I received was phenomenal, that’s what we are here for to support each other, so please keep posting if you feel the need, we are here for you

[Hidden]

Hi Adam,It is ridiculous to you because you're the one doing the overthinking and ruminating. It is not ridiculous to us. Believe me; I am going through this exact thing right now with my family. I think they are tired of me talking about a certain topic so much, when in reality this is just my mind telling me this. I am soooooo sick and tired of myself ruminating over this and talking about it that I think others must be too. I just emailed my family to ask if I could talk some more about it. The responses I got back from each one of them astounded me. They said I could go ahead! You know why they said this? Because they realize that this is how I process. They recognize that this is essential for my recovery. We as humans need to process. You need to process. You are not tiring anyone out by doing so. Everyone processes differently. Writing is an essential part of how you process. It's also an essential part of how I process as well. It is good to recognize our processes. While it is very respectful of you to post how you feel we may feel about how you process, it is unnecessary. It would actually be highly disrespectful of us to not allow you to do this. You are doing what you as an individual needs to do.

[Daveacr1959]

I remember they gave you Xanax. What about trying 1 pill every 8 hours? .5 mg . And what about starting your day with deep breathing exercises. And then 45 minutes of hard cardio. Like an exercise bike or such? Why not try just this and nothing else for a couple weeks? This is what worked for me. Then I got off Xanax and on klonopin. It’s weaker but longer lasting.