I broke up with my fiancé of over 10 years. It was a rough and exhausting relationship but I finally had the courage to put myself first. It was not an easy decision. Especially seeing as that I moved in upstairs from him. But it was all a one sided relationship, and I knew I deserved better. I deserved love; The punch you in your stomach, can’t stop smiling kind of love. But I did it, It only took me 10 years. I have 2 jobs, so I stayed busy with that, it kept my mind off it. Now with the stay at home order, like many of us I’m going crazy. My mental health was already bad to begin with and now it’s quadrupled.
On top of that, there is an older man that I have intense feelings for at in my work building. We dont know each other that well, but we talk here and there when we have a chance. it’s hard to explain. I was going to take a risk and summon the courage, to ask him. but again this shelter In place. So now I won’t see him, it’ll be two months at least til we go back to work. I always light up when we see each other and feel so happy. I can’t stop thinking of him. I’m lonely, tired and depressed. I’m trying, I’m really trying.