Alone

[Thistooshallpass7]

hi anyone, I’m so sorry to be back and depressed. I tried to manage but I made myself unhappy and unhealthy. I went back to the person who emotionally abuses me and got myself pregnant off of one night . Every day since then has been a nightmare.

He started by saying the child is not his and he wants nothing to do with me. He has called me fat and stink and said I’m crazy and no man will ever want me. The entire pregnancy has been tears and anxiety and I just don’t know what to do anymore.

No one could have prepared me for this, deep down I thought he would be gentle since I’m pregnant but he has gotten worse, he comes n sleeps on my couch and ignores me. He says he is only here for the child which he wants a test for but makes me cry every single day. He does not support me and says he doesn’t love me or care about me . He never went to one appointment with me 😔….

He argues with me for every single thing and when I ask him to change he tells me he doesn’t want to change for me and asks me what I really feel this is. We are not in a relationship. I have been trying to wrap my head around this but I can’t. I cannot stop crying and I feel guilt because I don’t want my baby to grow up like this.

I try to leave him because if I’m being honest he’s not mine to begin with but I still hope that things will change. When I call him, he ignores me, when he answers he stays silent in the phone, he hangs up when I’m speaking and randomly blocks me because “I nag him”

the pain I feel is unreal , I should be happy to be alive and pregnant but I’m not … I can’t sleep I am frustrated and I just don’t know what to do

[Dancelady63]

Hello there,

I am truly sorry that your bf is treating you so badly. Being pregnant and alone is hard enough. I hope things will get better for you. Ask yourself if you really want to be with somebody that treats you like this. I think you and your baby will be better without him. Connect with positive people that really can help you and make things better for you. I wish you the best.

[Thistooshallpass7 in reply to Dancelady63]

I appreciate you responding. It means a lot. I think so too but unfortunately I’m not sure I know how to let go of him. I know I don’t want to be with someone who treats me like that but right now I feel as though it’s the best I can do. I’m not ready to see him publicly be with someone

[Thistooshallpass7]

I try to believe this but I guess I crave the love and attention so much right now that I ask him about it at times and he just responds by saying “something is wrong with you, we were not good before” I don’t think he wants to make things work and I’m still hopeful which hurts me… I am doing counseling but it’s very expensive in my country so I can’t afford much sessions

[Thistooshallpass7]

I try

[GenevaRoth]

My goodness. This is horrible the way you are being treated. Your story certainly humbles me to strive to be selfless and kind to the ones who are closest to me. How far along are you? What an incredible blessing to bring a new life into this world.

[Curry223]

hi,

I know we don’t know each other but I’m praying things get better for you! You shouldn’t be dealing with this at all let alone during pregnancy. You are carrying and growing a life inside you. Everything you feel that baby will feel.

It’s safe to say you don’t love yourself if you let him treat you like this (no offense).

My best advice is to start loving yourself for that baby and learn to break it off with him completely to form a healthy co-parenting relationship. You are not stuck with this man because you two are having a child together. Focus on yourself before it too late!

God bless!