Just trying to get a grip on what's going on around me. I've been on Lexapro, risperdal and buspar since last July. I can tell that the medicine has made me calmer but I also feel that it has changed me. I feel emotionally blunted, as in I pretty much have no emotions any more. No happy, no sad, just blah. I was wondering if anyone else has ever felt like this and if you have any suggestions. Part of me wants to stop taking my medicine altogether but I know that's not the way to go. I eventually want to get off of the medicine and start living life again. I'm constantly worried about dying, something like heart attack or stroke. Have all the typical physical symptoms. I'm scared to exercise. Any tips or words would be great. Just trying to cope and feel better.