Don't really know where to start, but my husband of two years has recently been dealing with depression and possibly a mid life crisis and is constantly back and forth between wanting to continue our relationship and thinking he doesn't love me. We have discussed splitting up about 3-4 times now, but these last few times I have felt like he needs me to fight for him. And when I ask, he says yes, that's what he wants and that we won't make any decisions until he gives his medication and therapy time. But, he keeps pushing me away. Saying very hurtful things and constantly acting like he doesn't want this. Today he said he's just here waiting for me to get some things financially figured out to be able to stay in our house if/when we split up. I am trying to tell myself to have no expectations/hope, but I'm struggling. On top of all this, I found out a couple weeks ago that my dad has cancer again and it doesn't look good. I am trying to be strong for everyone else all while I'm breaking and just want someone to be here for me. I thought maybe just getting it all out there may help me feel a little better. I'm just in a place where I don't really feel like I have anyone or the people I have, I don't want to worry about me. I just don't know how long I can hang on
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