Struggling

[Coral43]

I have been struggling these last few months. I have depression but lately I am at the point of just being numb. It’s almost like I have no feelings any more. The past few months I have not cried one single time or even felt depressed, what I have felt is that I just don’t care about anything anymore. Is this normal with depression? I was recently put in a situation that could have landed me in jail (thankfully it did not), but while this incident happened the old me would have been bawling like a baby, but this me just stood there and didn’t say a word and it didn’t seem to bother me, and I’m struggling to understand why I am now like this. In early Nov. I had the worst episode of depression I have ever had that last about 3 weeks and it seems that ever since then I have been like this. Has anyone every go through something like this? If so does this get better, or will I stay feeling like I just don't care?

[Hidden]

I have been going through this. You just said the words I say to myself all the time. I don't know if it gets better because I'm still going through it

[Coral43 in reply to Hidden]

I'm sorry you are also going through this, but I am glad to know that I am not the only one that is going through it. I think the worst part for me is, my daughter is planning her wedding (she is getting married in October), and I can't even get excited about it at all, I have no feelings about it and that part for me well just sucks!

[Hidden in reply to Coral43]

I'm so sorry! If you ever want to talk about it, you can always PM me. 😊

[JaaKK]

I understand the numbness feeling, I have been there before. I usually turn my radio on to a contemporary Christian station and let it help encourage me throughout the days. But once in awhile there would be a day where everything was just not moving, only still in my world,even though the world was going on all around me. I learned all I could do was say "God, help! - I cannot move, I cannot think, I cannot feel, I cannot hear or see what is going on around me. God, help!!!" - Then, I started to notice, I was coming around, I could feel the fuzziness in my face and my hands. My eyes started to notice objects around my surroundings and could start to hear sounds again. My brain started to feel like someone had put the key in the ignition and started thinking again. I had to sit a few moments to regain my balance and momentum. Then I would go to the bathroom and splash water on my face to refresh myself. - The power of prayer is the only thing that got me through this time of my life. I had to rely on God, trust in his ways that He would see me through and he did, He always got me through. I am a better person today, because I made the decision to put my faith and trust in the Lord Jesus Christ. - I hope this helps you! - God Bless!

[Depresseddoglover]

hi coral - i have recently been there myself. it's called anhedonia and it's a symptom of depression. i was on a beautiful family vacation on a tropical island over the holidays and i was numb the entire time. i played constantly with my 3 year old nephew and felt nothing, i went on objectively thrilling excursions but i was dead inside. i'm so sorry you're feeling this way. i think it's possible to get better - prozac has begun helping me.

[Crich1982]

I feel the same way. Idk if it’s seasonal affective disorder combined with my usual anxiety and depression. Or if it could be life events that make me feel like this isn’t where I’m supposed to be in my life right now. My daughter is 11 and was diagnosed with OCD at age 6. Her symptoms increased this year after starting middle school, and her dad wasn’t being supportive. They’re back to a decent place right now, thank God. And she seems happier and less stressed, and doing better in school. Today I have no energy or desire to leave my bed and I hate it because she’s in a good space right now and I don’t want to disrupt that with my issues. She has a project for school and we need to go buy supplies, but it’s hard to gather the energy to shower, get dressed, and go to the store.

[Mellowme73]

Hugs of solidarity and peace to you, Coral🌞