I am posting here because I have nowhere else to go. Depression and anxiety have been intense. I am also suicidal today.
I am married with 2 kids. The problem is, I want to be with women. Last weekend I went out with a female friend and we hooked up. Met a couple of times since. I know it is new and exciting but being with her was more than amazing. I can not describe it. Somehow, my husband didn’t care! It was strange.
Problem is, I think I might be gay, and since I don’t want to leave him, my heart is broken. I have many suicidal and self harm urges because of it.
Of course, I will discuss it in therapy. Just trying to find reasons to keep going. Many thanks!