Struggling

[Jvicks]

I am posting here because I have nowhere else to go. Depression and anxiety have been intense. I am also suicidal today.

I am married with 2 kids. The problem is, I want to be with women. Last weekend I went out with a female friend and we hooked up. Met a couple of times since. I know it is new and exciting but being with her was more than amazing. I can not describe it. Somehow, my husband didn’t care! It was strange.

Problem is, I think I might be gay, and since I don’t want to leave him, my heart is broken. I have many suicidal and self harm urges because of it.

Of course, I will discuss it in therapy. Just trying to find reasons to keep going. Many thanks!

[Traveller85]

Thanks for sharing, you’ve come to the right place. You have my support. Hang in there. 🤝👐🏽

[bjones1888]

You are loved by many!! You’re in the right place. Prayers/good vibes/hugs coming your way! May you find some comfort in knowing that.

[Hidden]

You might be bi, and about the S word just remember you have 2 kids who will be heart broken forever, as a daughter i can't imagine life without my mom

[Jvicks in reply to Hidden]

You are right. I fight for my sweet babies. Thanks.

[AZ1970]

Perhaps you are bisexual. Or perhaps you are gay. Have you reached out to an organization to support you? I know there are many out there. This is not the end of the world, but perhaps a beginning of exploring who you are. I commend you for reaching out.

[Jvicks in reply to AZ1970]

Thanks. I have not found help yet, but I will soon.

[Hidden]

sounds like you are in a turning point in your life you will figure it out as you go. your kids need you and not a reason to end it all hope you manage to get some help and support dont be afraid

[Seekinghappiness]

I understand where you are coming from. Keep fighting for you kids sometimes that’s the only thing that keeps me holding it together. By no means have I got this figured out, but we have to support each other. Please get some help.

[Jvicks in reply to Seekinghappiness]

Sorry you are going through something similar. My kids do keep me going too!

[CaramelGal]

You are an amazing person who was put on this earth for a purpose!! Don’t ever forget that ❤️ If nothing else you’re a mom and that’s a good enough reason to continue fighting the good fight. Wish you the best luv!

[Jvicks in reply to CaramelGal]

Thank you for the kind words.