I feel pathetic for crying.

It doesn't seem to take much sometimes. Just a simple conversation with a friend who is convinced I have thyroid issues was all it took. She has been pushing me for months now to avoid doctors and instead rely on tons of articles despite my TSH & T3 readings coming back normal (which required going to a doctor mind you). You know, take matters into my own hands versus go to some quack because what do they know, right? I get it, I really do. Sometimes you do need to be your own health advocate, but I can't manifest knowledge about something I have zero background in. All I know is how debilitating depression has been for me.

She told me chronic depression isn't a disease and that I am essentially being an idiot for relying on doctors and my nutritionist (who ironically has Hashimoto's and looked at my recent blood tests and equally confirmed my readings were fine). My nutritionist did suggest taking a vitamin D supplement since my reading was very low, so I've been doing that along with adopting a Mediterranean diet. So between seeing a therapist, working out, changing my diet and taking supplements, she STILL thinks I am not doing enough about my health even though most of the articles she has provided suggest doing the very things I have been doing for 'thyroid issues' since depression is a side effect.

She means well and I am very thankful for that, which I've told her on multiple occasions. But I finally had to lay down the hammer and explain that it has been far too pushy, that it's information overload, that I don't have any hints of a thyroid problem right now and it's more than I can handle at the moment. She took it well and respected what I had to say, but I don't think she herself understands depression. Now I am a mess because as I said to her, I feel like I am failing my family, my friends and myself for not being good enough. All I can do right now is my best and I think considering the circumstances, I am doing more than I emotionally can handle for my own benefit.

I'm glad I live alone where no one can see me crying like a baby. I feel so pathetic for getting upset so easily by this.

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Nothing wrong with your response it’s understandable you just came up against the ignorance in society about depression it has been proven to be a medical condition with all due respect to your friend she doesn’t know what the **** she’s talking about simple as that.

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I'm glad. I try to be very careful about things I say now along with being respectful. But I am not a stranger to feeling like people abuse that with me. What I deal with feels real to me and it's never fun being treated like it's nothing.

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It feels real because it is real! Don’t ever let anyone invalidate your experience depression is as real as reality can be. Their ignorance is their problem don’t let it become your own problem.

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Yes, a very valid point. Thank you very much.

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“Don’t let the noise of other people’s opinions drown out your own inner voice.” Steve Jobs

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Very true.

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Never feel pathetic for crying!! Crying is an important part of the healing process to me. We all need a good cry every now and then especially when things get too deep. I'm proud of you for standing up for yourself!!

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Thank you, I agree. Though I cry a lot it seems (in hiding). I appreciate that, thank you.

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I agree nothing wrong with crying.

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I cry alot period...whether in public or in private...

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Aww...no shame there. I've done it in public too. I guess it comes with the territory.

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🤗 Is your friend a Scientologist? They don’t believe in psychiatry.

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Haha, oh goodness no. It sure felt that way...but they are only choosing to see it from a medical side aka their experience with thyroid issues and nothing else. Oh well.

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their are people who work in hospitals who are ignorant of the sufferings of the mentality ill. Just a shame when it is a friend.

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At first, I really thought she understood me on that level. But then it turned into “you don’t know what you’re talking about. I’ve had hashimotos for seven years, so you have thyroid problems. That’s why you have depression.” Never gave me the chance to explain my history, but had countless conversations about her experiences. It felt like she was diagnosing me and getting angry that I wasn’t giving into everything she was telling me. I’m glad I spoke up, but it certainly left me feeling worse for wear.

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You did what you could. You allowed her to give her opinion and you even tried her advice. I think she is scared of depression. I think she is so passionate she is correct because she needs to convince herself that it was physical. She could even still feel depressed. which she might not be able to cope with.

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Exactly. Oh trust me, I thought that too but didn’t have the courage to say it. I personally don’t push my beliefs on people, but I think she would benefit from therapy. She has a lot of deep seeded anger from her upbringing which is so saddening. I really do feel for her which is why I try to show her kindness. It is something she claimed to not be used to, so it compelled me to be a warm person towards her.

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Wow. She has a lot going on in her past. You did the right thing in setting boundaries with her. You are compassionate, but you can’t be at risk of her bringing you down. Asserting boundaries is important.

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Indeed she does. Very abusive father. Burned all their families belongings and kicked her and her sisters out of the house at a young age. She has never felt the love she should have from her family, so I really understand her anger. But you're right entirely. That's why I finally said something tonight. Thank you for responding to this. It has helped me a lot.

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Your welcome. I hope you have peace and are feeling better. Thanks for talking. Have a nice rest of the week.

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I have thanks to you and my friend John. You got it, thank you for taking the time

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But thanks for the chuckle, I appreciate that.

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I noticed when I am really depressed I use humor a lot so. People think I am happy because I can make them laugh but it just is how I cope. If I am serious then you know I am happy lol.

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I’m the same way. It feels good to make others laugh, but yes, it’s definitely a way of coping. I suppose that’s why so many comedians are depressed, huh?

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Are they? I didn’t know that. I am far from a comedian. I just get to a point where if I don’t laugh I will cry.

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Quite a few, yes. Robin Williams, Jim Carrey, Louis CK just to name a few. Aww, we can have a sob fest together after we are done laughing our butts off.

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Lol such fun people to be around.