New to joining any online forum or group, my title pretty much says everything .... I fight chronic disabling back and neck pain, I’ve battled with fibromyalgia, have not worked since 2010, I had worked since 1986. I have chronic recurrent depression since I was a teen, I Have always thought of suicide as a 2nd option if things don’t work out. I see a psychiatrist & I’m looking for a new therapist, I can’t count how many times I came close to attempting suicide & I have attempted suicide 3 times, the last was in 2014 & was as close to success as possible. I’m currently fighting off the dark thoughts, my pain gets unbearable & then I lost the three loved ones that understood me & laughed w/ me & lifted my spirits and now the three love ones that I have, are all very defensive, take everything I say the wrong way, they do not educate themselves on my illnesses — I feel invisible, unimportant and a burden AGAIN!!! My go-to-person, BEST FRIEND of 27 yrs passed away this past January.
Signed, Miserably Alone