Feeling the pain!

[LostFairy]

I am so off and alone tonight. I am feeling the extent of everything I have gone through today. I have 2 sons and had a daughter. My daughter committed suicide at 20 years old, three years ago, but still remains one of the reasons I am a mom of course, so that is a tremendous pain. But I also lost my mother in law, who I took care of for the last eight years of her life because she had dementia alzheimers, last year in July. She and I became very close and she was a mom to me. I miss her and my daughter so much tonight that the pain is indescribable. I don't know what to do with it and suffer from ptsd, depression,and anxiety. It's just so much right now I am feeling ill physically. Anyone who is suffering any trauma tonight, I send my heart and love out to you, This is horrifying, but I am determined to survive tonight. I just had to get all of this out because I know others suffer like me. Let our suffering together be our strength! Love and peace to all!

[Eagle12]

I am so sorry for your loses. You have an incredible, positive attitude for someone who has been through so much. My thoughts and prayers are with you tonight.

[LostFairy in reply to Eagle12]

Thank. I have to stay as positive as possible for my sons.

[Hidden]

My heart goes out to you, the only thing help for me were time! I went months depressed about my loss, in time it will finally stop hurting be so bad.

[LostFairy in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much. I am sorry for your loss.

[sunandbutterfly]

So sorry to hear of your losses. A year ago today, my grandmother died of dementia. It is hard after all of the time that I spent with her and caring for her. Have you ever considered joining a grief support group? Grief has no time limit. Is today a better day for you?