Feeling Lost

[Kookie1980]

I have suffered w/ anxiety for years on and off, but over the last few years, it has become horrible. Now I have severe depression, and I feel like everyone hates me and I can't trust anyone. Despite this, I still try to trust people but they always seem to do something so that I don't anymore. I don't believe there are true people, its all lies, politics, and games. I have found people to be mean, hateful, and jealous. Is this true or is there something that I am doing wrong? I have always felt a little out of place but I have always been super social and very giving. I just joined today, I just can't seem to figure it out. Looking for answers...

[maslater]

I can’t say if this is what you’re experiencing but I found when I’m depressed every thing and everyone seems worse than when I’m not depressed. What are you doing to reduce the depression?

[Kookie1980 in reply to maslater]

I have been taking medication. I have always had trust issues but it has gotten worse as I have gotten older.

[maslater in reply to Kookie1980]

It took me months to get back to feeling like myself after I started medication and therapy. My moods are a delicate balance that I’m always working on. Meditation has also helped.

[Kookie1980 in reply to maslater]

Same, they always feel great to start and then not as good I hope that eventually it will even out. I just want to feel good and not so paranoid all the time

[Kookie1980 in reply to Kookie1980]

What if it is just me, and everyone really doesn't like me. IDK It's bee a really rough week so far.

[bonkers65 in reply to maslater]

More sensitive

[Kookie1980 in reply to bonkers65]

More sensitive?

[bonkers65 in reply to Kookie1980]

More sensitive to stress

[Kookie1980 in reply to bonkers65]

Yes, I am for sure, maybe too sensitive in general.

[Fortal]

I feel the same way. Sometimes I think I have unrealistic expectations for life and people around me. Isn’t easy dealing with frustration.. Try your best not to let what you think people think of you shape who you really are. 💜

[Schnapplejacks]

I feel the exact same way!!!

[crowningglory19]

Well, it is sad that you have experienced that, I do agree that more people are harsher and too direct now. We have no sheet of politeness anymore, and people feel very comfortable w being mean, but there are also many nice considerate people around. Maybe find a group on meetup that is like minded? Also, volunteering in your passion will bring out the best in you and others around you, like minded volunteers with you. Something that will help w your depression/anxiety is taking magnesium malate and ginseng, (also an epsom salt bath now that it is getting chilly again) They calm the mind body and spirit and get rid of sticky negative thoughts, and have helped so many out w the depression/anxiety, for sure! Hope this helps, find your niche, and right type of friends. Don't give up on trusting completely, just use your instincts and look at people honestly, and deeply to see if they are trustworthy. Test them, try them, see if they show to be so. You got this, I know. =)

[Kookie1980 in reply to crowningglory19]

Thank you!