Battle lost 2.0

[PessimisticOptimist]

I didn't take my life. I saved myself before that. Or you people did. Thank you so much.

I am extroverted so naturally I'm always seen with people around me but I always only had one true best friend. We broke up about a month ago, over stupid issues I don't even remember over what. I have friends but those I only have fun with because (I'm sorry) they don't even put in effort to understand me when I'm upset. My boyfriend was my best friend before we fell in love and now I want to break up because I dont want anyone to be in pain when I'm gone. It's so difficult but I have to do it. I can't be a burden on him forever. He'll eventually move on.

Is there any genuine person left on this planet?

[AnxiousHeart14]

I’m so glad!x

[hurtingheart1]

Wow i dont know what to say exactly but that im really feeling for you right now!! Im glad youre here😊 im soo sorry what youve been through and no youre not alone!

[hurtingheart1]

I havefelt the same lime is there any real genuine person left in the world?

[hurtingheart1]

I also felt man times ive been a burden on my boyfriend

[hurtingheart1]

Sorry my tablet isnt typing right I meant many not man!

[hurtingheart1]

I am a genuine person

[Hidden]

I am pleased to hear you didn’t take your life.

There are genuine people who will be there in both the good and bad.

For us ,in my opinion it’s so difficult to let most people truly in, and see the sad side of us. I’m slowly doing that, I’ve lost a lot of people in my life due to this,

But to me that’s ok, I’m different to how they think of me.

I do more on my own these days. It’s weird as I always had quite a few people around me, there are less than a hand full of people still around and in contact. Not sure it all makes sense what I say, as it’s still a work in progress,

I guess what I’m trying to say is, it’s not easy but it can be worked out..

I wish you all the best 🌺🌷🌺🌷

[Hidden]

Hiya, I agree that you username neatly sums up the difficulties you and many people face. It is a daily balancing act between positive and negative. Some days bad, often awful things happen, frequently without any warning and, some days, the opposite occurs and our optimism is renewed, and on other days (probably most days) nothing much happens at all. I suppose, the question is how do we deal with these ups and downs, especially the downs. I don't have any simple answers (does anyone else?) but I do think, after many years trying to cope myself, I have realised a couple of things in particular, which actually are quite obvious and I wish I'd realised them many years ago. The main thing is that we cannot control what happens - the only thing we may have some control over is how we react (that has taken me 60 years to figure out ....d'oh!). Another thing is that we all need help and support in dealing with traumatic events, no-one can cope alone. And finally, we need to show ourselves more kindness and compassion and stop beating ourselves up. You are not a burden to anyone, you are someone who deserves help, support and understanding at this difficult time and your presence in this world enriches the lives of others. Take care,

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Very well said Sebastian. X

[fauxartist]

I think you answered that....all of us here....we care....we are always here.