I've never been on one of these sites before and I'm questioning myself on why I even signed up for one because the one person I feel like I can trust and confide in just isn't here for me the way he used to be we're dealing with a hard situation in our lives and he is away from me right now because of things he has done and when I reach out to him for love and support I simply just get excuses I get told that we're in the situation we're in because of me but I'm not the one who had the psychotic breakdown and did the things that he did to me I'm the one that loved him enough and was willing to lose him forever to make the call I needed to make but now I question myself if it was the right move what should I have done it even started so long ago in 2008 when my mother was killed in a car accident and I've never been the same woman and then the love that I found I ask myself if it was true love if it was me just trying to fix somebody and now I'm in the situation I'm in I've been the therapist they put me on meds and nothing seems to work and as this time goes on and get lonely or in Saturn the only times I want to get out of bed as when I know I have to go to work other than that I stay in bed and that's not the person I want to be I want to live life I want to be loved I want to be happy I just don't know how to get there anymore? So I figured maybe reaching out to people I don't know and don't know me might be able to give me advice might be able to help me because to be honest I'm tired of crying myself to sleep every night and feeling this broken heart and asking my husband for things that he just can't seem to get me right now and then it all gets turned around on me and I'm the bad person and I'm the whiny Bitchie annoying wife that does nothing but complain but I'm the reason he's gone and I'm reminded of that I don't know what I should do I'm still so in love with my husband but I'm so lost at the same time
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