Lost soul

[Cupcake5782]

Does anyone feel like they are just wandering? Like you don't truly fit in anywhere or with anyone? I felt like this for many years and it's a very lonely feeling.

I have people who are supposed to be " FRIENDS ", but when it truly comes down to it they aren't true blue and it's really sad.

I'm ALWAYS there for people, ESPECIALLY in there sad times, but when I need someone, where are they?

I don't know why this always happens to me, I know it must be something I'm doing wrong. I don't want to be playing the victim; it's just how I feel.i just wish i had one real friend that really cared. I just feel so many people are self centered and don't even realize what they are doing. I am always worried about hurting people's feelings. I wish I wasn't so sensitive. I'm starting to get bitter towards people and I don't want to feel like this. I never did before. I don't know, I just really needed to vent. I just had a pretty bad night. I finally made myself go out with friends to feel better, and now I feel even worse. Thanks for listening.

[Agora1]

Cupcake5782, you couldn't have picked a better night to vent about this very common issue among anxiety sufferers. I was just talking with another member about the same exact thing. Anxiety can be a very lonely disorder because we do tend to lose friends as well as having family members distance themselves from us because of it being an on going chronic condition.

You are NOT doing anything wrong. We are all made the same way. Good, caring people who wear their heart on their sleeve. Always willing to help someone but not getting it in return. Almost feeling invisible at times. Try not to feel bitter towards people, they just don't understand the concept of anxiety and how it alters our life.

As for wishing you had one real friend that cares, you have a whole family of friends on this forum who are the most caring people that I've ever met. Even though they are hurting and are frightened, they continue to reach out and help others. No matter how near or far we live from each other, this forum makes us one family in spirit, heart and mind. You are never alone. We care xx

[Cupcake5782 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much for reaching out to me. I'm just very hopeless lately and I know that's part of the mental illness.

[Agora1 in reply to Cupcake5782]

It is all a part of mental illness. I just wanted to reach out to you as a form of an emotional hug letting you know you aren't alone. Another thing Cupcake, it does and it will get better in time. I've been where you are and I won by kicking that Anxiety Monster to the curb. Life can be Beautiful again. Be Patient, Be Strong, xx

[gogogirl in reply to Cupcake5782]

Anxiety and depression I hear are quite common these days especially in this economic and political climate- so please - sometimes people just have feelings because of life's events- no one size fits all. I saw a great sign the other day- refuse to be a victim!

[gogogirl]

Wait- you went out with friends then said you had none??? Remember, you can be your friend.

[Bigt966]

I can relate to everything you said. I see this post is old now but how are you getting on now days.

Trevor