Hi everyone, I'm new here and would like to remain anonymous. I started an anonymous blog a while back, but I don't think anyone sees it. I want to express how I'm feeling, but don't want anyone to know that it's me expressing it. I have anxiety and depression. I care about others very deeply, but I don't feel cared for in return. I don't feel like my cousins care for me. They don't try to talk to me or spend time with me. I always feel like I'm the one initiating conversation. They barely even spend time with me at family parties. They seem too absorbed in their own lives. Whenever they have something going on/they're upset about something, I'm always there to listen, give advice, check in. But they never reach out to check on me or see how I'm doing. I don't know what more I can do to build my relationships with them. I also feel like I bother my friends. There are times where a friend will text me and I'll immediately worry that she's going to yell at me or be mad at me, with nothing triggering this feeling. I always feel like I'm doing something wrong. A lot of times I just want to post "who would care if I were gone" but I don't want people to think I'm going to hurt myself, because I'm not. Just feeling like no one cares.