Feeling weak.

Uhh i just got home from work. From my previous post, i was dreading coming into my new job as a CNA. Tonight was rough. Didnt get to go on break either. I had ten patients. But i did have some help today and she is one of the nicest ones there.

But after the shift, i felt so defeated.. i honestly felt like crying for the first time in years.

I think the verbal abuse, the screaming, and more screaming that i get from the patients might be triggering some past memories ive had.

I work with 95% females there and i know some are just betting that i wont last working there. Apparently not a lot of people last there that’s why we are understaffed.

Before i left the facility, they posted the number of patients i have tomorrow. And of course they put me in the unit where its even harder.

Its really rough taking care of these people that don’t even know who they are anymore. The amount of bowel movements i have to wipe off of them.

This is the feeling that keeps me up at night. The Feeling that i failed life.

[Kpaq]

Hi

I was a CNA for dementia patients for 2.5 years, now an RN.

It’s not abnormal to feel overwhelmed by patients. We care for the sickest people, and their pain and suffering falls on us which can be so difficult. Don’t give up! You’re a new CNA, it takes time to get used to things. Once you figure out your flow while working it’ll be better. ❤️

[Hidden in reply to Kpaq]

Thank you. I just tend to freak out while im giving them care because they start screaming and i cant fully clean up their mess in the peri area. I feel so bad. And im afraid that the next shift cna will start freaking out on me.

[Kpaq in reply to Hidden]

Always always explain what you are doing to the pt before and while you do it. Imagine a stranger just coming up to you and touching you in private areas, it would be scary. Try to be as calm and loving as you can. Even if they are not in a normal mental state, they are still human.

[Hidden in reply to Kpaq]

I always tell them the procedure also theres a lot of patients there that dont like males. And the weird part is that they put me in the section with a lot of lifts and no males for tomorrow. But thank you though. Im hoping to at least last there for a year.

[bw333 in reply to Hidden]

Sorry it is so difficult for U, but U r making a difference in their lives! 🌸👍

[morenews]

No, no, no, you did not fail...you survived such a difficult day, i am amazed by you. I hope it will be easier for you, not because it is easy(no, it is very hard), but because you will get experience and will be calmer...it would take time, it is not going to happen tomorrow. I have never done work like that, it is not like i am talking from experience, but i just put into those words i have written a lot of hope and wish for you to survive and win...and get satisfaction from the work you are doing, and congratulate yourself and appreciate your courage and strength.

[Kaez]

I can imagine the pressure you must feel. Take some comfort knowing that you are leaps and bounds ahead of me and I'm sure others who can't even work or leave the house because of their condition. So keep trying, see a doctor if necessary.

[baileyf14]

I am sorry you are going through this! Your job is very difficult but it is rewarding and amazing that you are helping these people. Have you thought about seeking another job since you are not happy with the one you are at now? Maybe another job could help you get your feet back up. I hope everything gets better.

[Hidden in reply to baileyf14]

Yeah im thinking of switching into health & wellness career. Im just so exhausted starting over with classes and trying to get a degree.