Lost no hope

[Blessed28]

After days weeks month years of depression anxiety panic attacks I have lost myself I have no hope no goals no dreams no peace no happiness I look in the mirror and I don't even know who is looking back at me where did i go what's my purpose here to just suffer daily then die hope do i do this for another 8years I can't go on I need a break nothing is fun nothing enjoyable taking a laugh or smile is played out why me why us why????sitting thinking what I could have accomplish if I was normal how happy everyone around me seems to be just up and go as they please why for me to breath hurts why must I suffer I feel this sick every single day my health is failing to me these symptoms are so real but yet I can't get any diagnosis but each day I wake up to my body that failing second by second I want to live but not this way I want to be put out of this misery it hurts

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. Are you getting any help? This disease plain & simply stinks, I understand how you feel. I have been retraining my brain & how I think, it has been very helpful for me. I'm her for you. Not that I don't have my challenges. love, peace, light, joy & hugs!!!

[Blessed28 in reply to Hidden]

Barely any help my doctor seems to not understand how severe this is and social worker she sucks same question over and over again

[Hidden in reply to Blessed28]

Our health system stinks. Are you able to seek a new Dr. ? Love, peace, joy, light & hugs!!!

[Blessed28 in reply to Hidden]

Am going to try to see another one soon

[Hidden in reply to Blessed28]

I wish you the best! In the meantime if you need me I'm here for you! Love, light, joy, peace & hugs!!!

[Blessed28 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you

[Hidden]

Maybe you could volunteer at a church that'd help you feel a purpose then maybe you could see a goal and aim.its only step by step we're able to cope with, with such low mood,do you go out with friends or anywhere?

[Blessed28 in reply to Hidden]

Not really much friends cause ppl sometimes just use u for wen they want something but I go out occasionally..volunteer sounds good

[Hidden in reply to Blessed28]

Good,I goto to Church care&share in community lunches ,for my lunch ,I originally went to volunteer and actually had lunch with the people and enjoyed it and my health went down the plughole so I just go to the lunches and some have thier lunch and volunteer on same days or different, asking as you can caryy things to and from then that's it.

[Blessed28 in reply to Hidden]

Have to check if my church does that

[writingforjoy]

I am so sorry and I do understand completely! I know it seems futile now but keep pushing on for diagnosis and help. If you are able to even a new doctor with new perspectives can help greatly. It seems like sometimes they put you on a list and seem to not take you seriously. The right provider can do wonders! I am sure you have tried them all, but I have applied relaxation techniques to my every day and see improvement. Also, diet and nutrition play a huge role. While you wait for doctors and medical aid, maybe research natural ease of symptoms. Slow deep breaths in and out while praying and listening to worship music every day has helped me improve. If you are not into that maybe just think on something calming and beautiful with your slow deep breaths. My hope in Jesus has changed my whole world. I do struggle some days but they are farther apart and fewer these days!

I pray that you find what will work for you and bring you healing and joy! It can be done even if the road is long, there is a victory. Someone mentioned volunteer, serving others without expectations has also helped me greatly! I know it is hard to get started but so rewarding in the journey! Best wishes to you friend!!

[Blessed28 in reply to writingforjoy]

Thank u for your kind words am willing to try anything at this point for help

[writingforjoy in reply to Blessed28]

Any time! Here are some resources that may be helpful.

Keep moving forward the sun does shine another day!!

bit.ly/2hwXnqH

[Mary-intussuception]

Hi

Have you had any blood tests?

Any to check your Thyroid function ?

[Blessed28 in reply to Mary-intussuception]

Yes all came back good

[Mary-intussuception in reply to Blessed28]

Did you get copies of the results (print out) so that you could see where in the 'normal ranges' your results were?

When you feel up to it - take a look at the Thyroid UK website. Search "symptoms of Underactive Thyroid" on there, and see how many you have.

If you have tiredness, depression, anxiety, constipation, unexplainable weight gain, sensitive to cold, aches, pains - Then ask your doctor to do blood test for Thyroid Antibodies ( TPO and Tg ).

You don't need to have ALL the symptoms. Write a list of the ones you have to show GP.

Also, when you feel up to it - read through the Thyroid forum on here.

Other tests you could ask your GP to do are to check levels of some nutrients -

Vitamin D, B12, Folate and Ferritin

because you may have some deficiencies that need prescribed supplement.

You could also Google search

"NHS choices - symptoms of deficiencies in . . . * " for each of above.

I hope and pray that you will get an accurate diagnosis and treatment and be feeling better sometime soon.

We have to fight for health care. It's an uphill struggle - so rest when you need to then keep on pestering GPs till you get a diagnosis.

AND always remember -

You are Precious and Loved (we all are)

God Bless

Mary xXx

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[777sigh]

I found that as terrible as depression is, that it actually can make you really creative. Try expressing that creativity in drawing, music, painting, writing short stories, or poetry. And you never know, if your good, you could enter it in a contest and win something cool. If not, try to get better at that skill until you are satisfied with your work. I find creating things to be pretty purposeful

[MariaLove123]

I see this post was 2 months ago. Are you still feeling this way? I love what 777sigh said. It really does bring out a creative side. I actually wrote a book. I’m going to try and get it published. And I’m journaling everyday, writing poems, listening to music and I’m getting really into crossword puzzles. I know the feeling of having little to no joy in things anymore. And I relate so much to the frustration that we are just merely existing and not really living like those happy people we see around us. But, they could be having issues too. No one if perfectly happy. Let us know how you’re doing!

[Blessed28]

Still falling deeper in this hole holding on for life but I dont even know y

[Soni_miss-1980]

Same condition here also.It seems like I am falling apart day by day not only my body but my soul is also dying with every passing day

[Blessed28 in reply to Soni_miss-1980]

It's just so sad we have to suffer so much