I'm having a hard time today. Every day seems to be getting darker for me. I have no emotional support, toxic family members, toxic work environment, I'm single and extremely lonely. Due to my work schedule and toxic relationship with my children's father, My time is limited with my children -only 12 hours a week. I realize I have an avoidant type of personality. I hate conflict and don't communicate my feelings effectively, I'll rather just walk away. Avoiding problem-solving . I've pushed all my friends away, and now I wish I had friends. Im such a mess. I want to feel better but all I want to do is stay in bed and cry. I hate it here. Darkness go away!!!! I feel so pathetic, worthless of living. I'm going to drown myself in my music and try to change my headspace. Anyone looking for a friend ship for chat and no judgement I'm here!
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Feeling Low & Broken
I'm just like you - can't get out of bed, can't feel good about anything, crying, etc. I also have no friends and don't have any contact with my mentally ill family, who all scare me. I think some people just get broken, and there's no fixing it. No idea what to do - except keep on breathing and feeling bad. Getting older is making it so very much worse. I hope you can improve your feelings and mood.
Thank you 🫶🫶🫶
I hear you on this. No family, but no one else either, and that makes life and get older feel darker and more depressing.
If only we could not care about it, like some people seem to be able to do. I used to have that confidence. If only my heart would stop racing with fear, and the nightmares would stop!
Hey, I'm gonna post my long comment here even after cutting it I needed to say things. So...
Now that's where we differ: to not care about 'existing' , that is simply breathing, conscious of every miserable moment and knowing you have done everything possible to change that existence into a full life that is meaningful and connected to others and the world around you, with people who value and respect each other, and who support each other and contribute to the good of others, our communities, our future. That is what living means to me. Unfortunately, I mistook the city and state I moved to 8 years ago when I took for granted that that everyone cared about that. This place has taught me no one really cares about the effects of their ignorance on others.
Sorry for the rant, but the truth is I would rather be dead than continue like this, I have always felt that, but in the past was always able to do something to change that. I can't do that alone though. This place has kicked me down further than I already was each time I reach out, and I feel stuck and hopeless, and I'm angry that suicide is my only option here because I have made dedicated efforts throughout my life to make choices that assured my life was meaningful and worth living. I care too much about the value of life, and my need to contribute to ever be willing to accept anything less, and this painful existence of the past 10 years of stagnation feels like solitary confinement.
Hey, glad you posted. It's interesting, because you acknowledged you tend to have an avoidance personality, and avoid conflict and expressing your feelings. But, at the same time you did that very well here. So, if this is an avenue where you feel comfortable doing that, good, use it! I, on the other hand, am very open, have no problem with conflict, but don't have a soul in the world to have conversation with. So, I'm an interested listener because people are what we all need to survive. So, feel free to engage, it would be a win win for both, and I'm sure there are many others on here who feel the same. Glad you reached out.
Thank you I’ve been working on expressing myself. I’m here if you need an ear to vent to. I work night shift so I’m up late
Thanks, I appreciate that because I am a true night owl, and will take you up on that.
too bad you don’t live in Canada. I am 100 %😀 like you. You must be my twin. It is the same life. Hi. My name is Laura. Nice to meet you.
Hey Laura….,my name is Melissa nice to meet you. It’s comforting to hear we are twinning.
If you ever need a friend I am here
I hope this forum helps you feel less lonely. One of the good things about the internet, it helps us connect 😊 I'm happy to chat !
I'm sorry to hear of your situation. I can relate to what you are feeling. Its so difficult at times to discern what is appropriate emotional response and what leads to dysfunction. You didn't indicate whether or not you are in counseling? If not, I recommend finding a counselor to help process difficult emotions. I pray that the lord may cover you in peace. God bless.
Thank you for the kind words
Hi friend I am in the same boat you are. What I wouldn't give for just one friend I could trust. I would love a new friend. I am an honest person but with that being said I will offer you support.
Thank you my friend … I love your name….minion
Thank you I'm also call emotional support midget as well. lol
If you ever want to chat on this app. I’d be more than happy to chat with you. I check things app usually once a day. 😊
you are not alone . I’m feel very similar! How are you feeling today? I hope you are feeling some relief xx
do you mind if I ask how old you are ? I’m just wondering if we are all of a similar age experiencing similar emotions? X
Hey Hannah im 41 yrs old and im doing ok today, I'm trying to remain positive.
hey, I’m glad you’re doing better. I’m 38 and the reason I asked age is wondering changing hormones and reduction in estrogen could be affecting us more xx
You are not alone!!!MUSIC IS KEY!!!! SO E THE BEST WAS WRITTEN FROM BAD FEELINGS,.I don't have kids but I know how your feeling,I been caregiver of my very ill mother,my brother recently killed himself and complicated everything, time changes everything ..much peace to you,stay in touch of ya need....pita......
Pitalife,
It is hard being a caregiver, I took care of both my mom and dad. I’ve never regretted it and I think you’ll feel the same way. Your mom appreciates you more than you know.
I’m so sorry about your brother, that has to be very hard for you.
I think I understand and can relate. In my similar situation I started contacting people who might want to be friends. There were two out of about 6 who connected, and that has helped as trust between us slowly builds.
Hi moemoe, hey I know the feeling I'm in a bad situation right now . You sound like you're very depressed and anxious . I found myself pushing friends and family away and not wanting to deal with just about anything. Are you on any medications ? If not please research omega3 fish oil and CBD for anxiety/depression , when we are under stress our brain chemicals become unbalanced .Most Drs. treat your symptoms as a mental issue my Dr. who is older told me my anxiety and depression is a physical not mental issue. Brain chemicals out of balance cause the mental issues. Since our brains are 40% omega3 we need to feed it omega 3 the CBD oil will calm the nervous system ,it worked for me and ended that cycle of depression and nervousness . If you need to talk feel free to message me ,if you want to try the omega 3/ CBD protocol I will be glad to send it to you . Have a good day and know you are not alone in this . Jerry
No time now, but this thread of comments and people wanting or willing to chat is awesome. I will check back later.
I had to learn to love my own company. Being in social situations is very hard for me. I can get out of bed. But I find myself staring out my window a lot. There is a whole other world out there. Sometimes I wish I could go live in it. Sometimes I am glad I do not. I see all these crazy people on social media and I am glad I stay inside.
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