tired of this

[bhinojos4]

hi i my name i brenda. I am a 17 year old who is dealing with severe anxiety and depression for 9 years but my parents were just told about it. on march 29 i was sent to a mental hospital after a suicide attempt. i tried to slit my wrist i did 28 cute 24 cuts horizontal 2 vertical and 2 diagonal. i spent a week in the hospital because they realized that i am borderline personality disorder. i take 21 pills just to be kept sane. i take 8 pills for anxiety 2 pills for depression 4 pills for a lung infection that i will have for life 4 iron pills 3 vitamin d pill. my immune system is slowly shutting off and we can't seem to find the reason. i am a medical mystery in my family. i have had 3 surgeries two in my ankles and one in my throat. i have little tumors in my kidney and lung but we cant do anything about it but treat them with pills because they are in very invasive places. i see a therapist every week and she never seems to listen she thinks that my life is perfect and she doesn't understand why i have depression. i explain that as a child i was raped and hit everyday and bullied but she says that it happens to every kid and that its not a big deal in the 21 century anymore. in addition my psychiatrist only gives me more and more pills because i am too depressed. i cant seem to keep friends because i make everyone sad and they say that the scars on my wrist make the uncomfortable. my parents blame themselves for everything i do which just makes me feel worse about myself but of course they'll never listen.

[Sparklygirl901]

I am so sorry u feel so low, it sounds to me like u need a new therapist it is not Ok, acceptable or usual to be raped bullied etc and not should we tolerate or accept such behaviour of course it affects you in negative way. I hope u find some enjoyment inside things? Maybe concentrate on them that's what I try to do, only do th8gs that make me happy and avoid stuff that is triggering like the plague, that's not always easy I know take care, hugs

[fauxartist]

You have a very bad therapist and you also have the right to get one that is there for you. This person first off knows that depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain and the other kind of depression will eventually pass...but yours does not. And to be told about these horrific acts done to you and do nothing is ethically wrong and they should lose their licence for malpractice....Demand you get a different therapist...I don't care what anyone says....it's your right....this person is doing more harm to you.....it's wrong. I am very sorry you’re going through this, I'm very sorry all of this has happened to you....but you’re at least able to talk about it here with people who DO understand and will listen to you. And further more...tell your parents it's not about them...this is about you....and you need help.....

[SuZQ154]

I am so sorry. It sounds like your therapist is not helping and you have been suffering for a long time. Have you considered seeing a Christian counselor? At one point I saw a secular counselor and did not have great results. When I saw a Christian counselor, it did help. Please consider this. Praying for you today and please keep posting. Hugs to you!!