I’m tired of jumping to worse case scenario every time something happens. Or when the news says someone close had a wreck and it is in my community. I instantly feel fear and start texting my kids before my heart will even begin to slow down. My youngest son has a dangerous job and it scares me every day I know he is going to work. In the last decade I’ve lost a sister,my mother,my brother, gone blind in one eye and dealt with someone who is hard to deal with. I know that’s life. I guess it doesn’t matter what brought me to panic and anxiety and depression. It is what it is. I have some good days too. Guess I’m just feeling really down and tired today. Sorry if I’m bringing anyone else down. You know I almost died when I was young and that battle almost seems easier than the fear of dying is. It’s crazy!!