Hi, I'm new here. I wake up ev...

[fish0]

Hi, I'm new here. I wake up everyday and tell myself that I am ok, but today I am not and I can feel it breaking me from the inside. I don't want to tell anyone in my life about this because they'll tell me to pray. There's a heaviness I feel, that I can't just 'pray away'. Most days I convince myself to be numb. I don't give a 100% to anything I do. I just want to disappear. Is there's something wrong with me? Why can't I feel anymore? I don't think anyone notices, I don't think my partner notices it either. I just feel really empty and broken today. And I don't know why.

[Marz21]

hi, I just wanted to tell you you're not alone, and I'm kinda new here too, but it's been so helpful already. Hopefully it can help you work things out and feel supported too. There is nothing wrong with 'you', but you're experiencing what must have struck you as some form of depression/anxiety to land up here I guess? Maybe speaking to a doctor could be the other place to begin. I was brought up in the Roman Catholic faith, and religion/praying can be a great support for some people, but you could genuinely require some medical advice too, if you can tell them how you feel.

[fish0 in reply to Marz21]

Wow, I didn't think anyone would respond.

It's hard for me to come to terms that I might be depressed. Coming from my community, mental health is not something anyone acknowledges as 'real'. I was brought up in a strict religious family, there was a time I thought being more religious would help but I just feel helpless. My family is very conservative, we keep to ourselves and don't talk about feelings. Same goes for my partner, who always seem to have a harder time at work as compared to me. After a long day, I don't feel like it's fair for me to be selfish and talk about myself and how I feel.

[courtjestah in reply to fish0]

Marz gave you some good advice fish.

It’s hardly selfish to talk about how you feel. The longer you hold everything in, the more the pressure builds making the depression seem insurmountable.

Do try to get some professional help. It’s very liberating.

[courtjestah in reply to Marz21]

Great advice

[bridder01]

Hiya! I can totally imagine what you're going though. You've definitely come to the right place. The people here are super-supportive. It also never hurts to vent. Sometimes just letting it all out can be very cathartic. And I agree with Marz. Nothing's wrong with you. We all go through rough patches. But, here's the thing......If you can stand up to the depression one time more than it knocks you down, then you've got this. It's not how many times you get knocked down, it's how many times you get back up. Stay positive, be safe, and always know you're not alone.

Sincerely,

Brian

[fish0 in reply to bridder01]

Hey Brian, this really means a lot. Thank you for making me feel less alone.

[bridder01 in reply to fish0]

No worries! If you ever need a pick-me-up, we've got plenty of oomph to lift ya up