I have always been a fairly bubbly, very shy until you get to know me and am comfortable, happy, "go lucky" kind of person. And this year I switched schools and I think it has caused those traits to fade away. So a bit of a backstory: I had gone to the same, very small, private school for 5 years. And this year I switched to a much larger public school. My expectations weren't extremely high, but I was hoping to have made some fairly close friends within the first month or so, but that is not the case. And I think this has taken a toll on my opinions of myself and others around me.
My thoughts are never clear, I can't tell if I am overreacting about something or not, I have started to think that everyone secretly hates me and I just feel like I don't know who I am anymore. And sometimes I think there is something wrong with me and other times I am completely in denial.
I am torn between wanting life (people, events, emotions, etc) to come to me or for me to chase it (which I find much more difficult based on me being introverted). I keep thinking that once I am where I want to be and doing what I want to do that everything will be better, but my patience is running out. I have thought about going to counseling but haven't mentioned it to my parents or looked into it seriously...
Thank you for letting me vent! I hope everyone reading this is doing well!