I'm new here and need support

[crimsonpearl]

I feel so lost. All I can think about is making it one more week until a certain event passes and then I just want to end it all. It consumes my thoughts. I am constantly anxious and depressed with a huge ache inside of me. I am numb, yet I feel everything at once. I have been to the hospital once before, and I have a feeling I need to go back, but I am terrified. I don't want to. I keep telling myself to wait until the event passes and maybe it will all go away. But I don't know anymore. I find myself getting excited when I think about dying, that's not normal. I don't know what to do. I am so lost and have never felt more alone than I do right now.

[Yorkiesmom]

Hi. I wish I knew what to say. You are in my prayers

[b1b1b1]

What is the event? You don't have to say, however, if you don't want to. Can you call a help line? If you feel in imminent danger, you must go to the emergency room for help.

[TKLOVE]

I’m so sorry to hear that your really struggling at the moment, if things are so bad you are thinking about dying or feel like harming yourself ring a help line, there are several organisations that you can talk to about how you are feeling as it sounds like your definitely at crisis level, I totally understand how you are feeling as I was in the same place and every night when I went to sleep I hoped I wouldn’t wake up again and wished I would die in my sleep and i felt devastated when I’d wake up the following day, but several months later I am doing much better, I still have the odd day when I feel like I can’t cope with life in general, but I’ve been lucky enough to have received the help and support that I need,, see a mental health professional once a month and I’ve been speaking to a councillor who has given me the confidence to start CBT exercises, I’m currently on a waiting list to see a therapist for one to one Counselling season, I also go to a support centre once a wk, speak to your gp and see what help and support he can organise for u, hope u get the help and support you desperately need ❤️

[Hidden]

Hello, it's so good that you are reaching out. You say that you need support and there are lots of lovely people here who will offer it. Please don't think you are alone. People who have never met you care about you and together we are stronger. Take care,

[Hidden]

Hi Crimsonpearl, from reading your post, it sounds like your reaching out for help and that’s a good thing. Don’t wait, the sooner you go to the hospital the quicker you will feel better. They are professionals and have training to help in our time of need. I fought going to therapy thinking I could do it on my own but I was mistaken. I’m glad I forced myself to go and hope you will too. I will say a prayer that you find the strength to go for the help you need now and remember we are all here to support you😊

[pink318]

Hi- Welcome to the group.

I'm sorry to hear that you are having a hard time. I pray that you will feel better soon and you will overcome all that you are going through.

Please know that you are not alone. We are here and we care for you. Please update us and I hope you will find the support that you need. Take care of yourself.

[DJB74]

I know exactly what you mean. I believe this step you are taking now is crucial in addition to other potential helps such as therapy, medication, etc. Its identification with others, sharing thoughts and feelings that you feel like are unique only to you to find out hey there are others like me I'm not alone. It has helped me more than therapy or medication to gain genuine, uncondirional support with like minded individuals.