Hello, I'm new here

[Bomo]

I am a college student who is doing something I thought could make me stand out and successful someday, but as I got through the first semester I realized how unhappy I was although my marks came out with distinctions it got so hard for me I can't pull through this semester, being away from my mom is one of the hardest thing I had to deal with but what's worse is I feel like I am going to disappoint her. I can't tell her about anything I'm experiencing as she herself comes out of depression and I know once I share this she would worry everyday. I have no one to talk to even if I try nobody could understand the way I feel. All of this fear of failure and disappointment has been leading me to sleepless nights. I don't even attend all my classes anymore since I'm afraid to face the world, I'm afraid I won't catch up on everything I've lost. I don't know what to think or feel, but everyday this feeling gets harder and harder, I'm sinking into depression and I'm starting to hyperventilate nobody knows about this and I just haven't consulted anyone. Is there any suggesting on how I could deal with all of this?

[hypercat54]

Hi I am sorry you are feeling so bad. The only reason I can see for going to college is to enable you to train for a career you want. You have to like the work and have a desire to be successful at it. If you don't like your career choice then it's not going to work.

You are far from the only student to feel like this so talking to any fellow ones might help. There must be a school counsellor there so make an appointment. Failing that how about your doctor? You need to nip this in the bud now though otherwise it will just get worse and be much harder to deal with. x

[Bomo in reply to hypercat54]

Thank you so much. I will make an appointment with the school counselor this week. It truly means a lot and I will try by all means to get rid of it now..

[hypercat54 in reply to Bomo]

Good for you. Meanwhile stay with us on here and join in as we all understand depression and anxiety. No one on here ever judges anyone else but we do support each other. x

[Bomo in reply to hypercat54]

Will gladly stay I'd rather be nowhere else. Thank you again

[15rose]

Hi, are you able to change the course you’re doing to one you may find more enjoyable or suits you better. If you can’t get to all of the classes, you could always catch up online or even ask your teachers to email the work to complete at home. Always remember that it is possible to catch up on anything you’ve missed, don’t let it cause you anymore stress. As for your mum, I’m sure you’re doing the right thing for her by letting her heal fully but don’t forget that you also deserve the same love. Please find a friend or teacher you can trust - a counsellor would be perfect. The more you let these feeling build up inside, the worse they can get. Meditation may also help you to clear your mind - the app Headspace is amazing and it even sends you little quotes throughout the day to keep you going. I know you can get through this! All the best x

[Bomo in reply to 15rose]

Thank you so much for such a great suggestion I will talk to my lecturers so I can finish this semester then next year I will continue with my passion in writing. I will download Headspace and I will talk to my student counselor. I appreciate your words I feel like a huge amount of weight has been lifted off me. God bless

[15rose in reply to Bomo]

It’s alright. I’m about your age so I know what you’re going through, you can talk to me anytime

[fauxartist]

You know....it's okay to change direction in college....and if I were you ...I would talk to your instructors.....let them know what you need to do to not get a fail....can you withdraw now and just get out now....by doing nothing ....it will make it harder on yourself and your mother won't be disappointed in you....just for you.....that means it would be better for you to take care of things now rather than suffer and let everything go.....

[Bomo]

That is so true because it feels so hard for me because I wake up every morning with so many doubts and fears that just make me feel super down I dread going to attend, I will talk to my lecturers and hear what they have to say. Thank you very much for being here, your words are doing wonders to my mentality, I appreciate it. God bless you