I'm giving up.

[AnIslandOfPeace]

I'm so sad right now, I can't even cry. My head and eyes hurt but the pain just gathers and remains in my heart. I feel useless but I don't want to. I believe I've done better in the past and this doesn't define me but somehow, it's making me to lose belief in myself. I think I'm better than this, I just don't feel it and now? Now I give up.

[kenster1]

you are better than this and you will do better again don't let the negative periods take over the hurdles you've jumped trying to get healthier.try and remain positive even in times like this.its hard but we have to keep going and believing.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to kenster1]

Thanks, Kenster.

[Sillysausage234]

Hope tomorrow is kinder to you

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Sillysausage234]

Amen. And you too, thanks.

[Jrick34]

My dear friend giving up cant be an option.....I know I know, you maybe thinking its easier for me to say that when I don't know how you feel but trust and believe I do. Despair is not limited, it doesn't have rules or preferences. Its only job is to make use feel hopeless and useless.....but we are here to help you fight. Your story isn't over and the Lord is not done with you either. I just told my other friend this on a similar post. "There is more that I require of thee....." Please don't give up

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Jrick34]

Thanks Jrick. But why do we end up with nothing even after so much trials and efforts?

[Clue in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

Your trials and tribulations are what defines your strength. Its called your will. God gives u the will to have the faith and hope to surpass all fears.you need to realize that. God will never give you more than you can handle. It's the devil who whispers you can't. Never give him that control. Own your life, love it and nourish it. It is a gift and a miracle. God bless you.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Clue]

Thanks a lot, clue. I really just need all of this to end, I'm too young for this.

[Hidden]

I believe the definition of failure is quitting. That needs to be removed from your list of options. You mind is lying to you and feeding you garbage. Just know you are being deceived and do not give in to the disease. All you may see is darkness, you must believe the sun will rise in your world.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Hoski. But so far, it just gets hard.

[Hidden in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

Life might b like running a marathon, my daughterinlaw says the 18-20th mile range is so hard you just think you are dying, but you dont die, you keep running to the finish line. Im not minimizing your feelings as I have those thoughts but they dont linger too long. Im 66, so my marathon is at least 2/3 over. I dont want to leave a legacy of Lou killed herself. I want my tombstone to say Lou fought the good fight. Please believe what you see right now will not be forever, it’s a dark valley. You will climb out and up to the day light.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Beautiful ❤️

[Kkimm in reply to Hidden]

Very well said

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Hidden]

Thanks a lot Lou.

[Hidden]

If you elaborate on why you feel you’ve messed up then we might be able to offer more appropriate empathy for your current emotions...I’m always better at trying to help problem solve yet I know a lot of times people just need to be heard and tell them that they are loved. You’re very helpful on this site and are important and needed.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Hidden]

Thanks a lot.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Hidden]

But being unable to understand or explain how I really feel is making everything harder. I just need the pain to stop.

[Starrlight]

I can relate and so sad for how you are feeling right now... What If everything is working along with you you just can’t see that yet, but we are strong or we wouldn’t be here ...and all is coming together for that break and for that perfect change... this is maybe wrong but it’s what I choose to believe right now rather than let the negatives think they have a place to stay. Please let’s work on believing the thoughts are just thoughts, don’t let them put us down.

[All_alone in reply to Starrlight]

I liked what u said in your post. I know things will work out for me and hopefully soon. Even though I dont see the light at the end of the tunnel. And yes, the negatives have taken up not only residance but also ownership of my brain. I also agree that thoughts and feelings are at times just that and may be wrong. Sometimes my thought may be I cant do this another minute, but I'm still here the next day, week. My problem is when the negative thought is based on fact. Such as, I need to keep operating as always to pay mortgage/bills because I dont know when a buyer will come along. I often think how much more can I take? I'm just so exhausted. I just don't know how to "reframe " some of my thinking.

[Starrlight in reply to All_alone]

You are smart and know yourself well. You’ll make it. I’ll make it. I have been crying off and on all day. And same the day before. Let’s try to catch our thoughts before they lead to a feeling based on lies and then we start sinking and reacting poorly. Yes reframe, start seeing in a different way. But some days are just gonna be I guess and it’s not your fault. I also have been feeling I can’t keep doing this. I find distraction and looking forward to something are things I at least for the present is helping me cope. But the tools we find to help us may change from time to time so try to collect ideas you like and things that help you get to a better place when it feels troublesome or before things like every day practice deep breathing or anything that helps you. I’m not saying these will always help but good to have to get you through until you can get help. Don’t forget to love yourself ❤️

[All_alone in reply to Starrlight]

Reframing at times is very hard. Today one of my worst fears partial happened- a lightning strike to a tree. The great news is the animals were not in that pen because if they were...... I was literally shaking afterwards for about 3 hrs thinking what could have happened. It didn't though. But I just can't stop. And yes a poor reaction and that constant ruminating. And anymore I really dont like myself. But yes we all will make it and we will make it by helping each other!!! Xx

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to All_alone]

This is great, your hope. Thanks.

[Starrlight in reply to All_alone]

((((((((Gentle Hug)))))))) I’m so sorry that you had such a scare and still feel the affects. It’s been a few days sonhow are you doing now? Hoping better ❤️

[All_alone in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you so much for asking. Yesterday was also not great. Today was better. I did have to go back to that area where the lighting strike hit the tree and stopped to look. I could not believe how charred the hollowed out area of this old tree is and the burnt smell. But the amazing thing is the leaves are still alive and healthy looking. Its a very old and majestic oak. Maybe theres a lesson here... if that tree can hold it together, maybe I can also as well as all of us! 💜💜

[Starrlight in reply to All_alone]

I love that. Thanks for sharing it. ❤️

[dsunlight]

Hello I hope you feel better. I went to the hospital an hour ago but left in tears. You see I'm in crises right now but have to work but can't make it through the day. I'm in so much pain.

[Starrlight in reply to dsunlight]

Dsunlight I am so sorry you are in crisis right now. What do you think needs to be done for you? What happened at the hospital ... only if you want to share... Just keep your head up for a bit longer okay.

[dsunlight in reply to Starrlight]

They said I could be evaluated for inpatient or wait on my Dr. If I go in can't pay the bills but I'm suffering and in alot of physical pain as well. I can barely walkaline and getting a biopsy this week. I'm feeling hopeless and lonely through all of it.

[Starrlight in reply to dsunlight]

Woah that’s a lot going on there for you. I will be thinking of you. I’m sure you will be making the right decisions. Take a break if you can; and become calm and listen for the answers. ❤️

[Sillysausage234 in reply to dsunlight]

Best wishes

[All_alone in reply to dsunlight]

I'm sorry your in crisis and pain. All our situations are different but still we struggle with the same feelings. Please try and stay strong. We will help each other thru. Hugs!!!

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to dsunlight]

I'm really sorry, Dsunlight. I'm sorry if my post added to your worries too. I feel better now and I pray you feel better too.

[Hidden]

Don’t ever give up that fight. We are all here for you. You don’t have to go through this alone.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Hidden]

Thanks a lot. I'm really grateful.

[Lisak0512]

I know someone telling u that it will get better and u won’t always feel this way probably doesn’t mean much right now , but trust me u will feel better and look back and remember how strong u were and still are everyday. Tell Yourself u can do this . U are worth fighting for .

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Lisak0512]

Thanks a lot, Lisak, we can do it.

[Bostonian]

I understand where you are on coming from. At times I am also disappointed in where I am at in life, thinking I can do better.

Having said that, we can't give up. We must have faith that things will improve.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Bostonian]

Thanks, Bostonian, I have faith.

[Stephabbiss143]

Recognizing that this feeling of self anguish will pass is the hardest aND most crucial step. Find something you like, a food, a color , a sound, a exercize, a person, and gravitate towards it until the pain subsides. If you are spiritual , turn to your higher power. We are all here for you.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Stephabbiss143]

Thanks a lot, Steph, I'll try one of those.

[Polara6ear]

You speaking my heart

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Polara6ear]

I hope you get better, love.

[HopeWithSmile]

Don't you dare quit. You ARE a STRONG, RESILIENT and BEAUTIFUL soul.

This soul does not deserve to be consumed by darkness. You CAN fight and you WILL FIGHT. And YOU WILL WIN.

Look at the sun. Feel it's warmth. And let this warmth reach you soul.

I am with you. We are with you. You are not alone.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to HopeWithSmile]

Thanks boss. But it's getting tiring. Notice I barely text you these days. Everything is going real fast and rough I can't get a grip of myself. Hope you're fine?

[HopeWithSmile in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

It is tiring, it really is.

But at this point there should be a pause to unwind. If you don't want it, you just need to do it.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to HopeWithSmile]

Thanks.

[beanxiousfornothing]

You cannot give up - you are loved and too valuable.

Isaiah 43:1 (New International Version)

But now, this is what the Lord says—

he who created you, Jacob,

he who formed you, Israel:

“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;

I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to beanxiousfornothing]

Thanks, I believe in God. Thanks.

[stovall1992]

Please don’t give up. I know it’s hard and it seems like life won’t get any better. But it will. Keep pushing and believing that it will. I have had thoughts about hopelessness and uselessness as well, and just feel so overwhelmed. But I have to keep reminding myself that this pain and sadness won’t last forever. The Bible says, “I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33). Lean on Him and know that through all trials and pain, God has overcome the world, and our redemption draws near.

Listen to “God Only Knows”’by for King and Country. It has helped me through my anxiety and depression.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to stovall1992]

Thanks a lot, Stovall, I'll listen to it.

[countryboy1]

I am so sorry that you are feeling down. What does "I give up" mean? What does giving up look like?

[Gtcncmp68 in reply to countryboy1]

I don't think giving up "has a face" my friend..☺

[countryboy1 in reply to Gtcncmp68]

That is exactly why I asked the question. As bad as life gets at times, giving up isn't actually possible.

[Gtcncmp68 in reply to countryboy1]

Now that reads better my friend. I understand you now. 👍 X

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to countryboy1]

Wow, thanks to you both. This makes so much sense to me.

[Gtcncmp68]

Please hang on in there you just haven't found what works for you.. I have had those thoughts what someone told me years ago was. "your own thoughts could kill you".. Have a think about it. Because you are probably the only one who doesn't want you here.. Hope tomorrow is a better kinder day. 🙏 X

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Gtcncmp68]

Thanks a lot, I see so much wisdom in the little you typed. God bless you.

[Tetelatia]

Don't give up. I've felt like that b4. I sometimes wish I didn't wake up in the morning. But I cry pray and ask others to pray for me too. Do you take any medications ?

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Tetelatia]

I don't. I only abuse sleeping pills every now and then.

[metalprincess1970]

I can understand how you feel but don't give up...trust me I struggle every single day to get up and not feel upset and unhappy. I constantly have to talk to myself. I promise you it will get better I'm in the middle of giving myself a pep talk now because I woke up feeling crappy but I promise it will pass. I'm sorry you are feeling this way but it will get better!! If I can help please feel free to reach out!!

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to metalprincess1970]

Thanks a lot, Princess, I really appreciate.

[newbie56]

Dear one,

A thought many find comforting is found at Luke 12: 6,7 (it reads),

“Five sparrows sell for two coins of small value, do they not? Yet not one of them goes forgotten before God. But even the hairs of your heads are all numbered. Have no fear; you are worth more than many sparrows.”

This one also:

1 Peter 5:7: “Throw all your anxiety upon [God], because he cares for you.”

Though the Bible is not a medical textbook, its Author, is our Creator. He knows we are "dust". Devastating lows are part of life. But just knowing there's Someone who cares and fully understands can be helpful...

The Bible is a vital source of hope and strength for those suffering deep depression. For me, it's been liberating. Sixty years ago I prayed for God to heal me immediately because I thought I would not be able to bear it any longer. Now I am content to pray for strength each day.

Today I am 79 years old with health concerns, yet I have peace... YOUR chosen name, AnIslandOfPeace suggest that is your heart's desire. Amen.

Never stop seeking peace. It will be abundant for you...

Agape

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to newbie56]

This literally brought tears to my eyes. I don't know what I'm thinking but it did. I don't know if it's feeling of guilt that I've drawn away from God or feeling that I've been missing out on the word of God. Either way, I need to rethink and reshape my relationship with God. Thanks a lot, I shall always remember this.

[newbie56 in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

Thanks for your response, friend.

We all need to be shaped & reshaped by the Great Potter. In fact, daily.

Because of the relentless Enemy who taunts us, we need the loving molding GOD gives. Because he has given us free will, we can choose either to accept his molding or to reject it.

It's so much better to be malleable, soft & sensitive to His touch.

Hope you'll pray about your needs. I assure you, I will

Agape

[Blu7]

youtu.be/rOzSuNRN4kg(Not working as expected?)

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Blu7]

Thanks.

[Mamamorton]

Don’t quit. Right now am having those thoughts, but I know God has something better for me. I think of my family and what that will do to them. I try to keep busy and remember scriptures or play a game. It’s hard. I know. But we can support each other. I wish you all the best

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Mamamorton]

Thanks, Mama.

[1OshunDreamer]

You're allowed to pause life for minute to deal with what you need to. But don't give it up. I know when you are at your lowest you can't see what others love about you or even what you used to love about yourself, it's there though.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to 1OshunDreamer]

Yeah, thanks a lot.

[Ketzel]

I feel the same. My entire childhood was riddled with emotional neglect. From the outside everyone thought my parents were so wonderful to adopt me. But they never hugged me, said I love you or supported me in a living way. At 50, in a mess of relationships and will never know what true love feels like. I'm done. I don't know how to do it. Life is too overwhelming.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Ketzel]

We will be fine, just read the previous replies and try to feel better.

[Ketzel in reply to AnIslandOfPeace]

I'm not fine. Through this neglect I was raped at 13. This further enforced the relationships with emotional unable men because all men wanted from me was sex. They still do! They lie , manipulated me because in so easy and naive because I trust. I will always be dealing with period that know how to push my buttons.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Ketzel]

I'm sorry, Ketzel. #sendsWarmHugs

[Starrlight in reply to Ketzel]

((((((((Gentle Hug ))))))

[Nom-D-Ploom]

It helps me to remember that it is my body having the symptoms. It isn't ME. Like a burn or labor pains I accept that the pain is there. I try tried and true "first aid" remedies, like this board where it is safe to speak of it. Then I, having done all I can, let the pain wash over me. I let it be...…….but not as part of me. Burns heal and headaches eventually go away. I also believe that this pain will get better.

I get extra sleep. I try to tune in to the day.....is it warm, are there flowers, does the air smell sweet? These things are a promise that all passes, but beauty remains.

I also employ a vivid imagination. Someone hurt me? I dream up the best response and how everyone will see the truth...…………...Fears? I imagine power and strength.

And I write. Write it all down. Edgar Allen Poe was not in a good place when he wrote The Raven. Listen to the song, Vincent. The best art, poetry, and prose comes from a battered heart.

I hope your pain passes quickly.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Nom-D-Ploom]

Wow, thanks Ploom. This comes with so much inspiration.

[Hidden]

I did not read through all the replies, however, this stuck out at me: feel useless but I don't want to.. you don't want to feel the way that you do so you have some hope left in you. Cling to that. You have the strength in you to survive these moments. Keep posting if when you want or need to. I found this site right after a very down moment in my life and come back a few days a week just to let people know that there are others who have felt, do feel, and will in the future feel, the same as they do. I hope we all make it to tomorrow.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Hidden]

Thanks a lot, I hope so too.

[Chancalot]

I can relate so well with your post. What do you do when you're in a position where you can't or believed by others to be unable to do the things you know you can and want to do. I feel useless sometimes as well with so many barriers (financial, social) in my way. I'm learning to do the best I can with what I can until something changes. I'm not (nor should you) feel worthless, this is just a season in our lives we have to go through but I'm determined to get through it and I hope you will be too.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Chancalot]

Yeah thanks, I'm determined too.

[Starrlight in reply to Chancalot]

I am also doing my best until something changes because just a week or so ago I was in a crisis center and did well there I am suicidal today at times believe me I’m catching my thoughts but disputes all my work I’m just gonna have to embrace sit with how I’m feeling and hold onto anything useful in my path. Determined here too.

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Starrlight]

I'm sorry, love.

[Feathe]

I know how you feel. I ve been there but there is hope. I managed to change my mind and I believe you can do it too. Read Kelly Brogan s book " a mind of my own ".she s a psychiatrist offering advice on natural methods of how to reverse depression without medication. She talks about healthy diet, exercise, meditation and natural supplements. Also Joe Dispensa s book "you are the placebo" . I used to have suicidal thoughts, now I enjoy life. You can too. We are eating and living in such unnatural ways that it's only natural that we get sick! If we remember to live by the laws of nature that we were created would t that create a difference?? Love

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to Feathe]

Thanks.

[artwanna]

Don’t give up !

[AnIslandOfPeace in reply to artwanna]

I won't. Thanks.