Hello! I came across this site after looking AGAIN for ideas on my crippling phobias. I've got a history of anxiety/depression but I haven't been medicated for a few years now, and I'm a happy person, I still get the "dark clouds" but life is good. It would be wonderful to see some of the places that I've always wanted to but I'm not able to because I'm (in no specific order):
Claustraphobic (I once kicked a door and it's frame when I was an 18 year old girl in college and the bathroom door jammed with me inside!)
Scared of heights - I can't even... sometimes I have near fainting weakness thinking of being up high
Loud noises (I have an irrational phobia of balloons, just seeing them makes me jumpy and I have to cover my ears, I cannot go to restaurants where there are balloons for kids because I can't relax and I'm NO fun)
but the worst because it denies me, my family and my career is the fear of flying I have as an adult. I can't tell when it started, since there was a time when I was able to fly without being scared and without having to pound a shot at the airport bar.
That doesn't really work well when the flight is delayed on the tarmac.
I'm scared of take off, I'm on edge if there is any noise, bump or sway at ALL during the flight, I'm scared of landing, I have racing thoughts of slamming my head on the side of the cabin IF something scary goes awry or we lose altitude at all, I am unable to take medication as I've tried and as soon as the plane starts moving, it's as if I have super resilience and I feel no numbing at all. I am not exaggerating that I've taken 15 Benadryl preflight, and as soon as I felt a slight dip or yaw, I was awake, terrified and because of the realization that all that medicine did NOTHING when I needed it most, it made me feel like I was going to have a stroke.
So. There you have it. I'm scared, now I want to get over it and enjoy my health, I'm so blessed but this stupid cycle of fears is robbing me and my loved-ones of adventure and life.