Wasted day

I’ve been in bed all day today. I’m so ashamed of myself. I feel useless. I get up then I feel nauseous and I lie back down. I can’t sleep. I have hot flashes and I begin crying. I try to get up again yet I am crying so hard. I feel again that I wasted a day. My head hurts, my neck hurts. I can’t make up excuses to my family anymore. I just want to be gone. My heart is racing. I have cold sweats. My stomach is burning. I believe I am having a panic attack again. Yet I feel tremendously sad. I never felt so useless in my life. What is my life for? If it is to live like this, I don’t want it anymore.

[jkl5500]

I have been through MDD several times, and I know how awful it is. You have to keep in mind that these things are temporary, and you will feel better again. I know it can't happen soon enough, but you WILL feel better again. Unfortunately, it takes time for your brain to correct itself through the medication. All those feelings of worthlessness, emptiness, etc., are typical reactions when you're in this state. Please don't take them to heart - they're not real. Your brain is playing tricks on you.

I'll keep you in my prayers. You're welcome to message me anytime.

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Thank you. I will keep these in mind and try to remember that my brain is playing tricks on me.

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I have a doggie too. He is a beagle mix. Lately he hasn’t left my side and follows me everywhere. I think he feels my pain and gives me love.

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My beagle is 3 years old. He is mixed with a Jack Russell Terrier. He has the fun attitude of a terrier but the softness of a beagle. He howls, all right! He is a funny little boy. His name is Astro. I named him Astro after the dog in the cartoon the Jetsons. He is very sweet and loyal. Very intelligent and he’s been supporting me with his presence.

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Thank you for sharing. It is almost 10 pm here and I am going to bed now. I’m exhausted. It has been a rough day. I wish you a good night and a restful sleep.

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I used to watch Jetsons when I was a kid. Ever since then I wanted to name my dog Astro. It really fits this little guy. He has so much spirit. Anyway I just woke up for five minutes and going back to sleep goodnight and thank you for helping me get through this evening.

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🙏😊

[Want2BHappy3]

I've been where you're at, have you looked into counseling?

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I have. She is helpful but very busy. I haven’t seen her in a month.

[Want2BHappy3 in reply to Hidden]

Then look for someone else who maybe has more time for you?

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Good idea. I’m trying.