Basically i’m At the end of my tether. I’ve had enough of the pills, none seem to work for me and at best all they seem to do is envelope me in a grey cloud of apathy. I’ve tried getting talking therapy, but 3 x 6 week courses of CBT Just seems to have made me more aware of my problems. To quote one councillor “the problem is that you [meaning me] don’t have negative thoughts about yourself, you have negative beliefs.” Living in the UK means it’s next to impossible to get anything other than CBT and since this depression seems to be part of me, should I just accept it? Should I stop trying to fight it? Should I just realise that one day i’ll Work up the courage to end it all? Cause it seems that nothing else is going to change and that life is never going to be anything other than pain, misery and disappointment.