working on myself day by day.

[Pianolover215]

Just joined to find support from other people out there. Coming out of yet another hospitalization staying at my parent’s house (I’m 33). Getting rid of a lot of the junk in my life that I shouldn’t have been doing, including people, but a part of me still greaves for it, so much so that it’s agony just to get through my day. Will be going back to my old job that I liked and getting a pay raise so all things considered life is pretty good, yet for some reason I still feel crippling depression. On meds and in therapy trusting in the system.

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. You will find a lot of support here. I am sorry that you are still suffering with crippling depression. I am glad to hear that you are on meds and in therapy. Hopefully you will notice an improvement soon.

[tommy2toes]

Hi There from somewhere in Asia (all a bit suspicious I know).

Although obviously not an expert, if you have moved back to live with your parents, why not try to reduce your anxiety by being conscious that you no longer are solely responsible for everything on a day-to-day basis like you previously were when living alone? I suppose what I am trying to say is try and learn to appreciate yourself as an individual, and prioritize your own well-being. Let those friends from who you have separated sort out their own lifestyles. If you have decided to break with your previous life, then make that decision stick for your own welfare. You can then slow down the pace of your day-to-day as much as possible to a speed that suites you, and which will then better help you to heal.

I don’t know if what I have said is of any worth or not, but I’d also like you to know that you are not suffering alone. In this modern dog-eat-dog world, there are literally hundreds millions of poor souls who are in the same boat as us.

Best of luck

t2t (tommy2toes)

[Pianolover215 in reply to tommy2toes]

I appreciate it, but me moving back with my parents is temporary, I didn’t make that explicit. I will continue to move on from those people, but still it hurts when I relied on their support while living alone for 3 years, which I will not have when I move back. I am attempting to find other modes of support that are more healthy, though. Thank you for responding.

[Craigliving4Jane]

Hey piano lover,

Man, that’s gotta be frustrating to go into the hospital multiple times and come out still have the same level of depression. We all here really feel for you and are admire of anybody who keeps trying like that to find solutions.

Keep battling ,keep trying ,keep after it till you find some solutions. Many of us know that it can be daunting and frustrating but also many of us know that there can be answers just sometimes it takes a while. One never knows when the right mixture of of holistic ,environment, medication ,therapy , et all., will bring us relief.

If it’s OK I’d like to pray for you for solutions and add you to my prayer list.

Much love.

Craig

[Pianolover215 in reply to Craigliving4Jane]

Please do, thank you. I am a prayerful man as well.

[Craigliving4Jane in reply to Pianolover215]

U got it

[Sunrisetabby]

I am happy to hear that you are working on yourself day by day! My goal for today is actually to go to the dump to throw out junk I have accumulated, but somehow, even when I haven't used things for years, I have trouble letting them go. Do you have a good system set up to help you improve? I was pleasantly surprised to read that you trust your system. How did that come about? Best wishes.

[Pianolover215 in reply to Sunrisetabby]

Yes, I have a psychiatrist, psychologist, loving supportive family, and 12 step group all behind me, and I’m using this platform and reaching out to others for further support.

[Agora1]

Pianolover215, take all you have learned from your hospitalizations. Put all

those pieces together until they make sense. Believe in the system but most

of all believe in yourself that you can and will beat this depression.

Welcome new friend to our safe community of support and understanding xx

[mizzou7016]

That's all we can do....is trust our hope and faith....you've got this....just remember that it's a marathon not a sprint....also remember that Rome wasn't conquered in a day.....some days you might get a lot done....some days it's all you can do to just get through the trials and tribulations of the day....and live to fight the next....main thing is is to never give up....only true failure is when 1 completely quits trying