I don’t even know what to say .
Basically I just feel so alone . I was born with a lung condition because of which I didn’t go to uni (catch infections) and then when i tried to work I kept on catching infections and with the help of my consultant had to accept that i need to stop working.
All my friends and cousins were working, going to uni , etc but i was feeling more and more isolated .
I slowly began to lose friends. I isolated myself so much to the point where i was in bed for 2 years only got up to go to the bathroom. I hardly ate or anything.
I also went through something quite traumatic as a child so everything in my life seem to build up inside me until one day i jut gave up and refused to live.. just stayed in bed.
I eventually got married and with this new journey came traveling ( I finally got permission to travel from my consultant) so it was a lot of first times for me with a lot of things . I am so happy my husband is amazing.
But I can’t help to feel lonely . I need friends but am way too shy to make any . My ‘friends’ from school time seem to only get in touch if they need anything.
I hardly go out . Because of my teen years in bed I didn’t learn to drive and now I’ve lost the confidence in that too . So I’m not independent due to that.
I couldn’t even think about public transport without breaking out into sweats
I suppose I’m just bored and lonely
My husband gives me all sorts of suggestions but I just can’t seem to start anything 😢
I must admit I’ve improved a lot since being with my hubby but the loneliness and lack of friends is really taking a toll on me x
Big hugs to all xx i hope the best for you all xx